[song? ]
[mood? cynical]

sometimes, people are funny. people dont say what they mean because they dont want it to be true. but it is. and when you say it, they get upset.

for example. izzy said he was in love with me. and that he would wait until i came back to nj. that he wanted to be with me forever. and dont get me wrong, im HAPPY he moved on. but i was right. i TOLD him that he wouldnt do that. i TOLD him he should move on. and at the time, we had a big fight about it. he insisted that he would only ever love me. as im sure he did with alina. but i was right alllllll along. lol. good luck with rebecca, izzy. but dont lie to her, even if you want the lies to be true.

so yea. life in cali is interesting. everything is different. its strange for everything to be so unfamiliar. its weird to just go to school, and not have inside jokes, and not know funny stories about the ppl u hang with, and not know their favorite movie, and not know that Blank has been stalking Blank since ____. and all that. i hope i stay friends with the people in new jersey for the rest of my life. i really do wish. but somehow, i think that because we were friends so young, we'll easily grow apart. :( i really hope im wrong. and if we do remain friends, i hope i dont go back and change my memories of everyone.

as you get older, your perspective changes. and thats what im so afraid of.

i wish i could stay young forever. but alas, i cannot.

ps- FRANCIS! i miss you the most. i cant help it. no offense to anyone else! i just spent the most time with francis. all the time in cali, i went to turn around and comment on something, AND FRANCIS WASNT THERE!! *tear*

im so sentimental tonight. its 3:21 AM on JANUARY 1ST 2005 (here in guam). im just thinking of EVERYTHING thats happened in 2004. it was a good year.

it reminds me too, its another year closer to the end of the world. and this second, minute, hour, and day are just increments closer to the end of the world. on december 23, 2012. as predicted by the ancient Mayans, the creators of the modern lunar calender and the number 0.

[song? falling away from me- korn]
[mood? I HAVE TO PEE SO BADLY!!! :(]

yea... ok about my mood, i really have to pee. but im at my aunt gina's so i dont want to use the toilet cuz they have bad plumbing and bleh... i guess i'll have to eventually.... UNLESS... no. thats too gross.

anyway. so... yea. im here in guam for the holdidays. the plane trip was such a bitch. its a 16 hour flight from LA. ugh........ it blows.

its christmas eve here in guam... but its only the 23 there in the states so... whatever. i dont wanna go back to the states cuz i have a bunch of homework to catch up on.... X(

im not that excited about christmas. im away from my mommy and no one went christmas shopping.... hopefully i'll just get lots and lots of $$$$$$$$$$$. cash baby. ohhhh yeaaa. so... yea. thats all for now... im gunna go on aim and see if anyones on. :D

[song? 99 red balloons-goldfinger ]
[mood? weird]

my mom just bought a house. i've never seen it lol.....she says its beautiful. she sys its perfect. should i believe her???

(i hate laptop keyboards... i cant type on them.)

so yea... i spent the night with my ultra cool cousin lindsay last night. it was cool. we were having fun watching Strong Bad be stupid at homestarrunner.com :D

so yea. i still have my old cell number.... so if u want me, call me. 757 2839.

alrighty. im out like

[song? the stupid oc theme song in my head]
[mood? gleeful]

im here in cali. its fantabulous. hehe.... so yea. i'll take a moment to fill everyone in.

im growing triops... theyre kinda like sea monkeys....theyre so cool. they hatched last night. hehehe

i've been chillin with my cousins. sally ad lindsay are ultra kik ass. so is sally's "crew"- jeff (aka the hairy ball licker) jim (aka sally's man candy) and kelly (more jeff's drooling puppy... not actually a friend of sally's)

i watched the OC for the first time becuz becca kept bugging me to. and now im addicted... that show just draws you in... its like a cult...... AHHHHHH

im living out of a hotel (our room is a mess. its cool, but it means that i havent met anyone yet. oh well... i will when i start school.

all the stores out here are so much cooler. they even have cooler fast food places. in 'n out burger!!!

i love it here. im ready to start a new life here... i should miss nj. but i dont. i WILL miss my friends.. but it still feels like im on vacation. oh well... adios pplz.:D

[song? blood- papa roach ]
[mood? :( ]

well... the packers come tomoro. so i wont really have a comp until were all settled in cali. if you need me, call my cell. i welcome all calls. i might not have service while i move, but when i get to cali, i'll still have the same sn and i'll tell everyone my new number.

i forgot to celebrate my 100th post. well... this is my 110th! woo... go bloggy! my block has stuck with me through the good times in the bad. in fact... it would be REALLY sad if i got abandoned by a blog.... lol

well... i guess thats it. i feel weird without izzy. but its for the best. im moving anyway. at least he will be able to move on :D... im being positive. not weird. theres a difference.

well... adios pplz. next time my readers see a new post, i'll be a cali girl! :P
bye everyone! i love you guys!!!

[song? blood- papa roach ]
[mood? ....]

to izzy-
congrats on being offered a sponsorship. you should keep blogging. its a good way to let stuff out. im not sorry about this, becuase school should be ur top priority. you cant have "better things to do". and you knew that if you skipped today, that i wasnt going to talk to you ever again. you brought this upon urself. and i loved you too. and if you had wanted to talk to me today, you could have called. i am sorry that it had to end like THIS though. you were a fantastic boyfriend, and still are a great person. i hope you find another girlfriend who doesnt care if you skip school. its for the best though... im moving anyway.

goodbye izzy.

[song? the way you like it- adema]
[mood? smiley]




hehe... this is miko, my purple puppy! :D hes so adorable...

so yea... not much has been goin on lately. adiOs ppLz!
**I LOVE YOU IZZY**

[song? sex and candy- marcy playground]
[mood? odd]

hey ppl. sorry i havent blogged in a while. my comp went out before. well, more specifically my phoneline, hence the lack of internet. damn dialup! DAMN IT TO HELL!!

well.. i havent blogged cuz not much is going on. we're packing. gettin ready to move. :(

we just talked to jr. apparently hes all preppy now. whatever... he still knew who i was. which was odd. havent talked to him since the summer between 6th and 7th grade... its really odd. right now, his AM is "how the fuck did that just happen..." and yea... i kinda agree. becca, francis, and bryan wouldnt tlak in the chat. i guess they were too scared. but whatever.

:( i miss izzy. i didnt get to see him this weekend... so im kinda sad. oh well... all i can do it think about him alot. it helps... kinda.

well... thats pretty much all that happened since the last time i blogged. so... CYA PPLZ
(my 100th blog is comin up! i cant wait!) im so sleepy....

***I LOVE YOU IZZY***

[song? none]
[mood? depressed]

theres not alot of good things i can say about today... in fact, i would rather not bring them up. so i'll just say the good things. umm.... we got class pictures taken today. i didnt blink... that was good. umm.... tom doesnt really hate me anymore. and i guess thats good. i understood most of the problems on the math test... well, the ones that i finished anyway (i still have like 10 blank that i need to finish tomoro). fitness day in gym wasnt that bad today, except i got embarassed in front of the entire gym. i wont go into how, if u were there (sammy and francis) u know what i mean. and lets see... what else.... i saw the cutest cat today... he was on my neighbor's lawn.. he was so cute. he was black and white, with a cute pink nose. there wasnt much else.

school was pretty borin today... not much happened beside photos. the science teacher is making us work in pairs that she picks for our next lab report... i hope i dont get stuck with tim or tom, cuz then they'll just be like "ok jessa, give me all the answers." like they always are. in fact, the only ppl i DO want to work with are jamie, becca, francis, sammy, or lianne. theyre the only ones who are smart and dont support BUSH. ugh.. hate bush.

well... thats all for today,the worst day of my life.
jessa.

****I LOVE U IZZY****

[song? rape me- nirvana]
[mood? drugged up]

bloggers bein a butt again. the enters arent working lol.. it worked yesterday... oh well... whaaaateva! sall good in tha hood! (audience laughs, then realizes what i just said, then throws rotten fruit at me) HAHA! no jessa. NO.

omg, i went to the orthodontist today, and ya know what he DID!?!?! he took off my palate expander!!!! WOOT WOOOOOT! my mom says i sound normal again! thats so great! i cant wait to go to school tomoro. im not gunna tell anyone, and then if they notice that i sound different, im gunna b like YEA I GOT MY PALLET EXPANDER OFF! and they're gunna b like, omg jessa ur so cool, i just cant TAKE it, and then theyre gunna faint becuz im just SO COOL. :D

i did ok in school today. im mad cuz on my math project, i got everything right, and ms tsumura gave me a 90 for not showing my work and not writing neatly. OMG! they stopped counting penmanship in 6th grade!! and it wasnt even really penmanship that i got off for, i got off for writing over my mistakes instead of using white out to correct them. i mean COME ON. geez. they stopped counting penmanship in 6th grade! AND WHAT WORK!?!?!? I DID IT IN MY HEAD!! THERE WAS NO WORK. i mean, it was FRICKEN easy. god... i cant believe i got a 90 on that. thats so gay. and then i did ok on the quiz that a bunch of ppl failed. i got an 82 which was ok. and i got a 100 on my math quiz. and i dont think i got any other grades back but yea. those are pretty good. i needed the good grades in math. all my other math grades had been medicore and this definately brought it up, even tho a 100 would have been even better than a damn 90! ugh... w.e!

so yea... i have a bunch more homework to do... i have to do the bloody comic strip, the gepa vocab, the worksheet for SS, and the math page. :P so yea... i better go get started on that. so CYaZ!

*****I LOVE U IZZY*****

[song? hear shaped box- nirvana]
[mood? sleepy]

today sucked. school was really boring (as usual) and not much else happened at home.

again, izzy is mad at me. he has this thing where if i dont talk for 20 min, then he gets to break one of his promises to me. this is really hard for me, cuz i have to do homework online, and its hard to keep up a conversation and do homework at the same time. :( he had been waiting for me to blog for a long time... i feel bad. i always end up making him wait. ugh :(

the only cool thing about today was my cute little irony incident that i had to write for school. it came out really good. i'll probably post it on my vf blog. :D oh.. and if anyone wants to look me up on VF, my username is black_ducky414. yea... cute i know. :D i wanted to copy izzy's username, and just change it to fit me, but then i realized how much i HATE ppl who do that. lol... its so gay. :P

i cant believe izzy waitied so long for this and its such a crappy post :( im sorry izzy. however, the main reason today sucked was that now izzy thinks i dont love him cuz i dont talk alot. :( i cant help it... ugh oh well. i guess im not good enough... i'll try harder. :D

tomoros gunna suck cuz i have to go to the sadistic orthodontist at 445. that sick little man. he ENJOYS INFLICTING PAIN ON LITTLE KIDS. its bad enough that we need braces but he just has to go and make it WORSE! ugh

alright, nightly night peopleZ ima go sleep after i finish my hw. nighty Night!

**********I LOVE U IZZY***********

[song? here to stay- korn ]
[mood? whippety]

ugh. when i press enter in blogger, it doesnt let me skip lines anymore, so now i have to go into the html and put a line break. *thank u francis for putting that into the HTML lessons on the forum*

things are bad. izzys mad at me cuz i was complaining about my hair yesterday. i had dandruff from the temperature changes and the fact that i switched shampoos. so i was freaking out. i got over it today, i just washed my hair really well. and then, right before this blog, i was telling him that the enter thing on blogger wasnt working.. and well... look:
Blinky41 [6:38 PM]: my enter button doesnt work on blogger anymore
Blinky41 [6:38 PM]: it DOESNT SKIP LINES
Isk82much [6:38 PM]: owell
Isk82much [6:38 PM]: 2bad4u
Blinky41 [6:39 PM]: yes.... too bad. ugh its gunna b hard to read. oh well.
Isk82much [6:39 PM]: ur complaing about ur blog
Isk82much [6:39 PM]: ugh
Isk82much [6:39 PM]: all u worry about is ur freaking blog and ur hair
Isk82much [6:39 PM]: UGH
Blinky41 [6:39 PM]: sorry

so yea. hes mad at me, and i found out that my house sold. we're moving in like... a month. some polish couple with a teenage son bough the house. so we have to start packing. even tho we can pack the entire house in like... a week, my mom wants to get a head start. the thing is, i might have to stay with someone for like... a month after we move out, becuase i would miss alot of school. she wants me to stay with one of my friends, but i dont want to impose on them for an entire month. my mom wants me to stay with emma or francis, but thats CRAZY. my main thing is that i dont want to impose. and also 1) staying with francis would be creepy.2) i hardly know his parents, and PLUS, (no offense francis) we're not THAT close. and emma, like... i just dont want to impose. so i'll probably end up missing alot of school. and that will SUCK. :(

yea... well other than that, my mom went crazy. i have to show her all my homework the moment i get home, do it before i take a nap, go on the computer, or watch tv, and then i have to show it to her again. if i dont finish before 7, i have to go to sleep at 930 (unless it is legitimately more than 4 hours of homework, in that case, shes going to call the school). so yea. my mom went insane. :(

alrighty pplz. ima go do other stuffs. GO KERRY!!!!(haha michelle!)

****I LOVE YOU IZZY****

[song? getting away with murder- papa roach]
[mood? SICK]

today... i was really really really sick. it sucks. sucks BADLY.

mannnnn i want cereal SOOOO badly. but i cant get my ass over to the cabinet to get it. BLEH.

today, i went to gym remedial. and it SUCKED. mr denaples made us do push ups, sit ups, and laps for like... half an hour. it really sucked. espesially because im sick, and my nose felt like it was going to fall off. :(

ugh. today was just bad. i have 2 quizzes tomoro. bleh. we're doing annoying things in math and science. art is kinda cool. we're making a huge book out of paper mache. but yea. not much happened today. not much AT ALL.

ugh... im not even going to repeat what i am to izzy. i know he loves me, but sometimes i get sad. oh well. i'll just let it go.

well, nighty night pplz. gotta go watch the debate for homework. *GO KERRY*

******I LOVE YOU IZZY*******

[song? im not okay- my chemical romance]
[mood? i have chapped lips.. does that count?]

bleh! im still sick so things suck. the only good part about today was that we spent nearly the entire gym period rehearsing for lockdown drills. hehehe. we only had to do exercises. NO SWEAT! literally... we didnt sweat. it was great. my tongue is swollen and it hurts damn braces. and mum just opened the door and a draft came in and my toes are FREEEEEEZING. so that sucks too.

oh, and we got our class rings today. theyre ok. mine was supposed to have a ruby in it, for the school colors, but it looks kinda... how u say.. PINK. its really annoying. and then the ring company assumed that everyone in our school had FAT fingers, so everyone's ring was like 3 sizes too big. ugh. i liked francis's tho. he had a pretty blue stone. ugh... at least his looked normal. i didnt get to see jamies tho, and becca didnt get one. so yea.

today sucked. badly. everything was boring. and my art profet is SUCKING. we have to make huge everyday objects, and my partner, this girl jathy, and i are making a big open book. but so far it looks like .... a piece of crap. we're supposed to make it out of plaster, and its gunna be totally crazy. and messy. for the next few weeks, im gunna be totally covered in that plaster powder, so im gunna look like a coke addict. what fun! :D... not.

my nose itches so bad... but its like.. that itchyness on the inside that u get when ur about to sneeze. but it sucks cuz i dont actually sneeze... i just get the nose itch... that sucks. :( at least my throat doesnt hurt tho.

sammy was mean. in second period today, he was like "JESSA I HATE UR VOICE" so i shut up. he tried to cover it up by saying that it was just when i made a particular voice, but ugh. so i didnt talk around him. unless i had to give an answer in class. he apologized a bunch of times, but i was still sad. :( i hate my voice too tho. so i dont blame him, but he could have at least said it nicer. goodness. i was listening to my voice on the recorder yesterday or today or something, and GOD. it only makes me hate my braces more.

tonight i dont have homework. so mom wants to go out and celebrate by going to red lobster. i like their biscuits. they have awesum biscuits. its so great... theyre like lemony and cheesy and good. thats the only reason we go there... lol. for the biscuits. sad, i know.

my mom says that the next dog we get is going to be an australian blue cattle dog. good. theyre medium sized dogs, and im sick of little dogs. i've always wanted at least a medium to large dog. i mean... size matters, right? ;D lol.. jk.

i like tape. alot. its really great.

well, thats all for now! TA TA PPLZ :D *huggles*

**************I LOVE U IZZY*************

[song? lovely day-lit]
[mood? sick >:( ]

so yea. i think im sick. but it might just b a bad sore throat from like... sleeping with my mouth open. (that happens to me sometimes). i hope im not actually sick. gym SUCKS when ur sick and i have to stay after this for gym cuz i missed last week. ugh... that SUCKS :( the THOUGHT of it makes me wanna puke. so anyway... yea.

im trying to make this a long post cuz... izzy wants a long post. so yea. but im kinda limited since i've gotta go to bed at 1030. ugh... normally, i wouldnt want that, but cuz im SICK im extra sleepy. and izzy thinks that im suck cuz im "pregant" which implies two really bad things... but he says he was joking. so w/e. i'll pretend i never heard that.

ugh.. i just realize how much i hate homework. i hate it with a fiery passion. i hate it. i curse the creator of homework. and like.. im MAD. if the homework were HARD, then i would think its worthwhile. but its just annoying now. the math woman is giving us homework in the SAME EXACT THING SHE TAUGHT US LAST YEAR. ugh.. i REMEMBER her speech on it. its so gay. i can understand ms sheridans homework. hers is good. but OUTLINING from the science woman??!?!?!? outlining doesnt help u learn ANYTHING. ugh.. im so bloody sick of it. if i werent so arrogant, i would drop out of acc classes. but i cant let the acc ppl think theyre better than mE!! psh.

ugh. i hate it when my mom smokes. shes promised me every year since i was 5 that she would quit. but DOES SHE!? no. when she turned 50, she said, thats it FOR GOOD. but did she go with that?!?!? NO. she was like "oh im too stressed with ur brother in iraq" oh? so ur gunna slowly kill urself so that when he gets back IM motherless and HE has to take care of me?!?!? HUH!?!? ugh. im just reminded of that now cuz shes smoking and i have a sore throat so it stings to breathe. hmph... i got her to put out her cigarette. she SAYS she loves me, but if she really did, she wouldnt be slowly killing me AND herself. i remember one time, in the Atlanta airport, the have little glass smoking rooms. and she wanted to stop for a cigarette between flights, so she made me wait outside the glass room with the luggage while she went inside and chatted with the other smokers. and i was like.. 9 so i made the saddest little puppy dog face and stared at her. i made sure to hold all the luggage as i was making my sad little face. lmfao. everyone in the room gave her nasty stares until she was forced to leave. lmfao. the MOMENT she got out she smacked me lightly and was like "THANKS ALOT JESSA" and i was just cracking up. but HA thats what she got. hmph! making me wait like that. but yea... she says again shes gunna quit smoking, and when i told her i had lost all faith in her, she was just like "what? you dont believe my promises anymore? its only the 9th time i've made this promise..." she actually said that. sad eh?

but yea. its 1030. i have to sleep. izzy still isnt out of the shower. i'll wrap this up and then wait for him to get out so i can say goodnight. well, blog ya LATer pplZ

*******I LOVE U IZZY********

[song? the world is not enough- garbage]
[mood? strange]

im feelin strange. i dont have my bracelets on... so it feels like my wrists and hands arent even there... lol. its odd how i've gotten so used to them. i wonder how i get through gym.. bleH! gym was pretty good today. we played soccer. my team kicked the other team's ASS. hehe :D

ugh. i hate andrew messinio so much. hes such a jackass. im coming out of the locker room after gym, right, and hes walking by, and he says that stupid "burn, baby, burn" thing that he says everytime he sees me. he thinks hes funny cuz its like "byrne, baby, byrne".... but its not funny. and he had that stupid smirk, like, oh im so funny, come fight with me jessa. i've hated him since last year when i had gym with him. he would like.. push up against me or poke me, and then be like, jessa! stop touching me! and then mr hemenway saw him one time, and he made andrew sit on the other side of the bench. that stupid bastard. i hope he gets shot and then run over repeatedly by a steamroller. and then there was the time he called me a goth sl*t. but i wont even get INTO that. ugh

well... other than that, today was pretty normal. school was good. and i learned a lesson. the purpose of drinking is not a race. it is to consume the reccomended amount of daily liquid. laughing while drinking is WORSE than drinking and driving. the mixture of laughter and a full mouth of Brisk results in a wet table- as jamie and i learned the hard way today.

i cant wait to see izzy this weekend!!! :D

but yea. man... i have this song stuck in my head. but i dont know who its by or what its called. all i know is ONE line of the song. "there used to be angels. they used to watch over me. love isnt blind, but it aint what it used to be" it was so cool... i heard it on the radio like... AGES ago. im gunna try and find out what its called later. but w/e. :D

beavis and butthead isnt as funny as it used to be. theyre like.. really annoying now. my new show is GROUNED FOR LIFE. i used to watch that ALL the time, but i havent watched anything but adult swim in ages. i only ever watch tv while im doing homework late at night, hence the adult swim. i have to find out when grounded for life is on tonight. im gunna WATCH it. :D

man, i've been ultra cold ALL DAY. even during gym, when everyone was hot and sweaty, i was cold. i have reynaus (i cant spell it, only say it) syndrome and that SUCKS.

subway! EAT FRESH!

yea... ok im gunna go look up grounded for life and the song. and im gunna talk to izzy. and im gunna try and heat my toes. :D

I LOVE U IZZY

[song? 1985-bowling for soup]
[mood? chipper :D]

yea well school sucks. i almost failed the math test but hopefully im gunna improve my grade. :D so im happy about that. anyway its only test and this stupid project that im doing tonight should improve my grade. one of the teachers said i looked sick. ugh... i probably look pale and ew and ugh. *checks mirror* yea... wow i do look sick. im not that sick... i just get headaches alot now. and that fucking jump rope thing in gym with the gay music blaring didnt help AT ALL. but yea... its all good. its only school. :D best not to sweat the small stuff.

i miss izzy. im so excited tho!!! i get to see him this weekend!!! :D its gunna b so great! :D i miss that dear boy sooooo much. :( when i see him, im gunna hug him, and kiss him, and squeeze him, and just be OOOOOOHHHHHHH SOOOOOOO HAPPYYY! :D i cant wait!!! hehehehehehe :D

bhavini is mean. she got a gym excuse becuz of "muscle aches" WELL DUH. its been summer. we havent been exercising as much, so are muscles are out of shape. and OBVIOUSLY if theyre sore, that means theyre getting stronger. she says that if they still hurt when she goes back to gym, shes gunna go back to her doctor and get another excuse. but UGH. thats so gay. ur never gunna get any more fit if u keep getting excuse from gym! BUNS OF STEEL PPL! BUUUNNNSS OF STTEEEEEEEEEEL! thats what its all about. and u KNOW IT!!!! and francis and sophie SUCK cuz they got to miss gym today. francis had orchestra and sophie had a retarded ankle. :(
those BUTTS!!!!

i have to do the big hard stupid math project. everyone says its easy... but i havent looked at it. IT BETTER BE EASY TIMOTHY. OR I WILL MURDER UR FIRST BORN CHILD. haha.. thats like.. the best threat ever. cuz no one knows if ur serious or not. they have to wait until they have children. and they might NEVER have children becuz theyre scared ur gunna murder it. lol... in that case, you will have done a good deed by preventing the stupid ppl for breeding, hence sparing earth from more idiots. :D :D :D lol... YES.

im such a nerd. like... ugh. sometimes, its really sad. when my friends and i are all standing around before school, we talk about things like homework, the test today, and other nerdy crap. NORMAL ppl are there talking about what they're gunna wear on friday night. and the sad thing is, im the only one of us who seems to realize that we're so nerdy. i try and start normal convos, but they always end up in ppl just going "ur crazy jessa". so it never works out... lol. oh well, i guess we're condemned to our nerdyness.

man.. that song by ciara "goodies". thats song is so strange. its about this girl... and she keeps her goodies in a jar so that these guys wont get them. its a really odd thing to write a song about.. thats like me writing about how many socks i can fit in my dryer. ITS POINTLESS. can u imagine a music video for that? jessa's number one hit- "SOX IN MA DRYA" and then it goes to a shot of ppl dancing in front of a huge dryer filled with giant socks. the DAY that video (or any video like it) comes out, i will lose respect for all music. i will then assassinate whoever sings it. and when im sentenced to death by the electric chair, i will be happy. becuz i alone single handedly saved all of music. that one artist that sings the socks song, will have ruined music for ppl everywhere. ppl will sing praise of their death. and then the NEXT song that comes out will be like "THANK GOD THAT THE GUY WHO WROTE THE SOCKS SONG IS DEAD" by Everyone in the Entire World.

wow... i cant believe i went on that long about that. thats really sad. see, thats something i would have said at school to try and start a normal convo. but by the second sentence, ppl would have been like "ur crazy jessa" and then we'd end up talking about books and homework. IT ALL COMES BACK TO THE NERDYNESS. lol... but yea. its ok. i've accepted it.

bleh! im so cold. but im not gunna turn off the air conditioner. cuz them ima get hot, but i wont remember to turn the airconditioner back ON. and then im gunna squirm on the floor cuz its so hot. and me squirming on the floor is not pretty, and it doesnt solve anything. so i will sit here and be cold for the sake of future squirming.

i have to download some songs. that would b good. :D i need to download the new papa roach song.. some greenday... an old garbage song... and that marcy playground song if i can find a good version. :D but yea. thats gunna take a while. i'll download them while i do my homework and talk to my beloved izzy online :D

this has been a long post... good. i needed it. :D i needed to ramble some. i havent rambled in a while. oh how i miss it. im quite fond of it really... but no one has the time to listen to my ramblings. :( its ok tho. thats what i have a blog for!!!!

well.. ima go do my homework then. goodnight pplZ :D

***~!I LOVE U IZZY!~***

o

[song? predictable- GC (its been stuck in my head all day)]
[mood? sleepy]

ok. i just want to clear this up. izzy says i dont talk to him. lately its been becuz i have to watch the baby, catch up with my aunt, do all my FRICKEN HOMEWORK, study, and deal with some other issues. i call him, but either he "stepped out" as leamsy says, or is sleeping. when i talk to him online, he doesnt count that as talking. and when i text him from my phone, my phone lags, so we cant have any NORMAL convos from there. so im trying. but like, its kinda hard when im trying to hold jasmine, and izzy's texting me, to reply to the texts quickly. im sorry izzy, once my aunt leaves, i will call and everything more. i just needed to clear that up. i love izzy SOOoOOOO much!!! :D

well yea. in case i havent told u already, my baby cousin is adorable. im not gunna go on about this, cuz i kno i already told most of u. but she is :D

mannn. i have to study for the SS test that i missed. becca gave me a kinda study guide. and she says its easy. so yea. :D but i have a huge stupid chart that i have to do for social studies. and then i have the gay outline for the science bitch. and then i have to study vocab... and then i have to finish the questions for LA. so yea.. i should probly get started on that. oh, AND i have to download some NEWSY music for the class newscast, burn it, and bring it in tomoro. yea. i SHOULD get started on that soon. my mom is mad cuz i didnt go to sleep til 430 last night. so i only like like... 3 hours of sleep. wait... 2 and a half. same shit. but yea. ok. sorry, i know this is boring to my readers, but its more of a reminder to myself.

today was pretty good. it was funny tho. i sent a note to francis in math, like, making fun of him. and he got all like "fake mad" and then he crumpled up the paper. but all my homework was on the other side. lol... ms tsumura started talking right after that, and me and becca started cracking up really loudly right in the middle of her little speech. but of COURSE, becuz becca and i are always messin around in her class, she ignored us. :D hehe. she cant yell at us. i mean... we do well enough in her class. after that, i was like "psht! francis! that was my HOMEWORK!" he was like "OMG! IM SO SORRY!" and we all just cracked up. that was fun. math class rocks.

and then like.. 10 min after that, tim came and sat next to me cuz he wanted answers to the homework, and we got off subject and him, me, francis, and becca, started talking about where we're going to high school. tim was like AND I QUOTE "well, i cant go to chs (Clifton High School) because of all the druggies. and you know me, i get so tempted that i just get sucked in!" fracis said he was gunna move to like.. some weird state or something, and tim was like "thats where all the druggies live!!!" timmy is such a funny little person. its a pity he can be so annoying. he has my book, and he KNOWS its mine. and he KNOWS that i KNOW he has it. and he wont give it back!!! and he owes becca $5! bleH!

*sigh* i miss izzy. i havent seen him in ages. :( :( :( mom wouldnt let me see him this weekend cuz auntie carol was here. but i get to see him next weekend!!! :D WOOT WOOT! i cant wait! HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHHE.


ok.. thats all from me for now!!!

****I LOVE YOU IZZY****

[song? painted black-gob]
[mood? sleepy]

hey guys, just wanted to post a short one before i go to bed.

i just got back from NY with the aunt, baby cuz, and uncle. it was really cool, my uncles family was all really nice. we staying in a piece of shit motel tho... but we complained and got upgraded to the best room in the worst hotel.. lol. well yea.

baby jasmine is TOO cute. its crazy. u just wanna SQUEEZE her. apparently she likes my shirts. i wore my zim shirt, grouch shirt, and pilz-e shirt. she loved em. all 3 days i had to pick her up so she could sit and point at my shirt. she loved it. :D she likes ceiling fans too. they amaze her. every time she sees one, wheter its on or off, she points and laughs. its so cute. :D

well, yea. im doin a buttload of homework. it sucks... i dont feel well tho. ugh. i have a tummy ache from all the food we ate at my uncles grandma's house.

*goes to Tums commercial: TUMS TUMS TUMS TUMS TUMS!*

hhehehe. im so happy. i get to see my izzy next weekend. i cant wait. i have to bribe mum into either driving me, or giving me the money to take the train. (hopefully i wont run into any scary pedofiles) but YEA! i need my izzy fix... im like an ADDICT. its crazy :D

well, im SooOooOOOooOO sleepy! so im gunna go do my homework and go to bed. g'night yalL!

*************************************

I LOVE YOU IZZY

*************************************

[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]

jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(

birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!

well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.

izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D

*******************

I LOVE YOU IZZY

*******************

[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]

jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(

birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!

well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.

izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D

*******************

I LOVE YOU IZZY

*******************

[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]

jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(

birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!

well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.

izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D

*******************

I LOVE YOU IZZY

*******************

[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]

jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(

birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!

well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.

izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D

*******************

I LOVE YOU IZZY

*******************

[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]

jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(

birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!

well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.

izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D

*******************

I LOVE YOU IZZY

*******************

i

[song? the best is yet to come undone- lit]
[mood? happy on the outside. thats all that counts.]

today was so cool. in school there was a big ass scary bomb threat and we all could have been blown up. it was exciting in a terrifying way! :D hehehee!

well yea. my life is slowly being beaten with a mallet until it cracks. lol... great analogy eh? i know, thanks. :D oh well. i keep failing.. but all that matters is that i love izzy, my friends, and my family.

tomorrow we have off from rosh hashanah... lol. i told ms tsumura that she couldnt give us alot of homework today because i have to celebrate rosh hashanah. she was like, oh what do u do for the holdiday? and i was like.. "umm... we celebrate!" she asked what we celebrate, and i was like "we just party....!" she was like, "oh ok. SO for tonight all you ppl have to do a worksheet, the journal, and some other thing" yea... im not good at lying about being jewish. :D OH WELL. i'll just have to live with it....

mmmm.... werthers. francis and i got them when we went to the dollar store after school. they kick. :D and... SO DOES MY BRISK!

*cuts to brisk ice tea commercial- you see a animated bruce lee beating ppl up and then drinking a bottle of brisk ice tea. BRISK BABY!*

does anyone remember that commercial? it used to be like... my fav commercial of all time. now my fav is this shower commercial... its so cool. but thats a whole diff story that im not gunna get into today.

welll NIGHT PEOPLES! yall kick tuSH! :D

**********************************

I LOVE YOU IZZY

**********************************

[song? still muse]
[mood? crying]

sometimes i want to believe in god so badly... just so i can pray. but i cant.

i cant believe i fucked up again. izzy's mad at me. he thinks i want to break up with him. hell no. i dont want that at all. but i fucked up. and now he thinks im rebelling against him and that i wanna break up. i've been pissing him off and making him mad alot lately. and im never going to use the word "chill" again. ever.

Blinky41 [6:23 PM]: you might want to break up with ME... but i dont want that
(izzy's sn) [6:24 PM]: sure w.e
^a piece of the actual convo^

im gunna go listen to sad music. and mope.

*****************************

I LOVE YOU IZZY
*****************************

[song? our time is running out- muse]
[mood? exhausted]

i think im drowning- asphyxiated
i wanna break the spell, that you've created
you're something beautiful, a contradiction
i wanna play the game, i want the friction
you will be the death of me

"Our Time is Running Out" -muse

sorry... that song is so great. i've been listening to it for like... 2 days now.

anyway, sorry i havent blogged in ages. i have a good excuse. you see, my computer's modem... DIED. so i had to have the oh so fantastic IZZY, god of computers come fix it. :D so... now it works. im sorrY! MUCH THANKS TO MY BELOVED IZZY FOR REPLACING MY MODEM!! :D

so anyway... yea. school sucked today. we started gym. mr hill tried to kill us with these weird ALMOST pushup/situp/standup things. theyre really gay. but oh well... i must comply simply due to my undeniable inferiority. haha... school does weird things to my head. i start THINKING... and then... i start writing sentences like that. *points to that other sentence*

well... on friday the aunt, uncle, and baby cousin are coming. i've never seen jasmine yet and shes already one and a half... god. i dont remember the last time i saw family other than my brother. beside sally, the last time was in 5th grade. and sally came in like... 6th grade. so... yea. i cant wait to see them. also, its gunna be cool, cuz jasmine is the only other ragan thats white. shes supposed to be as white as me... funky eh?

well... no one knows what the fuck is going on with the house. my mom is talking about going back to work. amandas parents might rent the house. no one really knows. none of the ppl who look at it want it. so... w/e.

the need to shop is burning through my veins like rivers of fire!!! ok.. so im exaggerating. but still... i wanna go shopping. and spend lots and lots of mummy's money!! MASLDKJALDSJlsa. muahahhaha. im so spoiled... ugh.

well... since you all already know what a nerd i am, im going to tell you this. the other day... i was playing tetris... AND GUESS WHAT HAPPENED!?!?!? i got my all time super awesum HIGH SCORE. i did a victory dance and everything. i dont even DO victory dances, but this time i did. it was so great... :D :D :D i got 119,866 points!!!! and i got to level 16!!! how kick ass is that?!?!?!? when you score over 100,000 theres this special thing that it does at the end. ok, the dorkiness has passed for now.. BUT IT WILL BE BACK.

i had such a kick ass time with izzy yesterday :D even tho we didnt have alot of time together, and the time we DID have we were stuck in clifton, it was good to just see him. he makes me so happy... :D i miss him already... :P *tear* im not gunna get to see him next weekend tho cuz im going into yonkers with the family :(

well, 2 words for ya. homework SUCKS. ok ppl. im out. gotta go do the hw. my readers ROCK!

****************************

I LOVE YOU IZZY

***************************

[song? no song]
[mood? sad]

today i messed up. izzy was wating for me to call, but HE didnt call, so i thought he was mad at me. he usually calls me but he didnt. so i didnt call or text him, and so he got mad at me that i didnt contact him. :( im sowwie izzy. i will start calling.

other than that, today was ok. ms sheridan is really cool.. so is ms tsumura (again). i dont like basil, gary, craig, and kevin. i wish theyre werent in my class. they really annoy me. but its good to see my friends again.

i have a stomache ache and i feel light headed. oww... not much else happened today anyway... so im gunna stop here.

BYE EVERYONE!!! *hugs*

*~I LOVE YOU IZZY~* and im sorry for not calling :(

[song? livin it up- limp bizkit]
[mood? sad and crying. i know, im pathetic]

i was happy earlier, cuz i got to talk to izzy. but then he got sleepy and went to bed. and right before he slept, he said he loved me. and i said i loved him back. but he only said "sure w.e" wich means he didnt believe me. i really think he stopped believing that i love him with all my heart. god.. now im crying. the ONE person i love right now, doesnt believe me when i tell him that i love him. boy have i fucked up this time. hes the most important thing to me right now, and what happens? he thinks i dont love him.. thats just fucking great. and now my day has officially been fucked up. until now, i had a great day.

well, i'll tell yall about what happened before this. i read the my summer reading book all day. its really good... its called briar rose. by jane yolen. its based on sleeping beauty, but its been modernized. so... its just a really good book. :D

then i made dinner for my mom and her friend... i ate some. but mainly i ate two pomegranates for dinner. theyre sooo good. theyre like.. APPLES... but better. the main thing is, theyre FUN to eat. you have to pick out all the seeds to eat. unlike normal fruit, you only eat the seeds... theyre so good. my new fav fruit- pomegranate.

and as i was reading my book, i was stretching off the bed, and i stuck my head right next to the side table. and what did i spy? MY MISSING MP3 PLAYER!!! it was in a stack of my stuff that mum stashed under the table... lol. i found a bunch of cool stuff that i had forgotten about along with it. im soooo glad i found it. it was a gift from chris, and he would probly murder me if i lost it. i love my big brother soooo much. :D hes my HOMIE.

chris left to korea on sunday. he should have gotten there like... tuesday morning or monday night. im gunna miss him. hopefully i'll get to see him around christmas, but who knows. with the house and all this moving shit goin on, we might be house hunting in cali around then. so, i might not get to see him for a year. wich is bloody fucking great. i didnt even get to visit him and say bye before he left. god. its not like i was anywhere else this summer. im sure izzy would understand if i took like, a week in georgia to visit my bro before he left to the other side of the world for a year. im gunna miss my big bro. but at least in sol hes safe. and not back in iraq again. :D thats something to be greatful for.

and im mad cuz i didnt get to go shopping at all before school. we're poor cuz the house hasnt sold yet. so i cant go shopping until the house sells. and that UPSETS ME. i need some stuff... i need clothes and crap. DAMNIT. i NEED TO GO SHOPPING. i NEED to spend my moms money. I JUST NEED TO. i havent gone shopping in ssoooooo long. it upsets me.

i can and cant wait to go back to school. i dont want to cuz i still have to do all the essays and current events. PLUS when im at school, i cant see izzy. so that SUCKS. but i do miss my homies. shout outs to becca (ears pierced and hair cut), jamIE!!, franshiz, SammY, bRenna, and MichellE, brenda, lianne, ryan, bryan, emMa, and amAnda. and it'll be good to wake up early and be mad at the sun for shining at such an ungodly hour again. lol... shit.. i need to find a ride to school. kyle? emma? MOM?!!??! who knows. but yea. i kinda miss it... weird eh?

ok, there was a mem here that showed that johnny depp wanted to bang me 222 times. but the hmtl code didnt work on the blog, so i cant really show you. none of the mems are workin properly. im sorry. i wrote this next part before i found out the html code didnt work.

lmfao.. im glad i got johnny... but ew... hes a SEX MACHINE!!!

(lol.. dont worry izzy, he aint got NOTHIN on you!!! ;D) jk.. i dont know about anything or ANYONE being a sex machine... and frankly, im very glad of that. :D

sorry... i couldnt resist this mem... its just funny.... in a really sick perverted nasty way. :D BUT WHO'S MORE PERVERTED THAN ME?!?!? *readers scream "micheal jackson and r kelly"* no... i mean BESIDE them... see? i win if you dont count them. and theyre not necessarily more PERVERTED.. micheal and r kelly are just sick pedofiles who enjoy intercourse with CHILDREN! THOSE SICK BASTARDS!!! but anyway, thats beside the point... and speaking of the "point" i forgot what it was. but w/e.

ok, well this was a really long post. i promised izzy it would be. :D well, moms yellin at me to sleep, since it is now 340 am... so maybe i should. i have alot of work to do tomoro. i'll finish up the math and stuff, and do all the essays and crap tomoro. damn... i havent written all summer and i have to do all of it the day before school starts. NICE jessa. REAL nice.

well, good night ppl LOVE YAZ! *dances away*

**********************************

*I LOVE YOU*

*ISMAEL*

*ANGOLA*

*PARETS!!!*

***********************************

[song? quite bitter beings- cky ]
[mood? hardcore.]

ok, to explain my mood, i wanna go headbang and break stuff. this song ALWAYS makes me feel like that. yea... its so kickass!!! YEA! *goes to some metal concert and comes back* those ppl were scary... i dont feel hardcore anymore. *wimpers*

well... anyway. today sucked. i couldnt go to wny. i get to go tomoro tho. :D well yea. so.. tomoros gunna rock. but today, all i did was read, throw up, eat, and cry. yea... today was pretty boring. i was stuck in the house all day... i think. i forget. wait.. no. i emerged from my cave once. to go eat philipino food with mum. it tasted good, but i couldnt eat any of it cuz my teeth r too weak. yea, i kno, its pathetic. BUT WAIT AND SEE!! when i get my braces off... oh.. you'll all be DAZZILED by my crazy movie-star, perfect, white, straight smile. its gunna be so great. :D :D :D :D :D

well yea. thats pretty much it. ummmm.... i love izzy. i love him SOOOOOOOO much. :D thats all i have to say ppl.

I LOVE YOU IZZY

(im gunna be ghetto tonight)
PEACE!

[song? bathwater- no doubt]
[mood? hyper and sleepy]

hey... i read today. i read. and then i fell asleep in the middle of reading... that was bad. but i got some reading done... and that was very good. i only have to read briar rose now.... well along with finishing this book. its quite good actually... and so is briar rose. im gunna use stargirl as my 3rd book. and i already read that... so im home free. and i can just use some OTHER book that i already read as my 4th book. yea. and i have my articles for science. :D :D :D so i should be fine.

im goin to wny tomoro. izzys gunna get his hair cut... and ima go with him. :D i love the feel of new cut hair... its so cool. but yea. things are good. i love my izzy so much... heheh!

well... my teeth hurt. i have to get them checked the DAY school starts. ewwIE! and im hungry... i was eating before but i stopped... psh. i dont NEED food. psh.. food. w/e... i'll probly eat something tomoro. or not... w/e.

btw- did anyone see the notebook? that was such an awesum movie. i saw it while i was at the shore a few weeks ago.

well... thats pretty much it for today

I LOVE U IZZY

and i love my readers too. they all ROCK! :D

night!

[song? the boogie that be- black eyed peas]
[mood? kinda pissed]

PSH.... this is bull. my mom wont let me go to wny tomoro. but... at least i get to go saturday. i cant wait to see izzy :D mmmm... IZZY

im such a doRk! well... right now, im messin with my earings... i think my second hole in my left ear closed... but thats TOO FRICKEN BAD. im gunna make it reopen if i have to make it bleed. i cant just have my piercings CLOSE on me!

today i got stuck in the fuckin house. i had to clean and shit for the ppl that came to look at the house. but yea. thats pretty much all i did. then i had to go to barnes and noble for like... 2 hrs to find all the crap that i need for the summer work. but yea. i got what i needed. tomoro im probly gunna have to read all day so that my mother will drive me to wny to see my beloved. :D haha..

love is a beautiful thing ppl. never underestimate it. love can make blind men see and mute men talk. just maintain hope and faith. if its meant to be, it will work out.

on that note, i think its ironic that i've been stuck in new jersey for.... 7 yrs now. and in the last 4 months of being here, i find the guy im meant to be with. thats so fucked up. i've found true happiness. and for that, i thank new jersey. i have good friends, and a great man here. but the ppl are the only thing in new jersey that i value.

this state has killed the wonder i once had for nature.
this state has killed my cat. the only animal i loved more than some people.
this state has killed my faith in education as a release.
this state has killed what little simplicity i had left.
this state has killed the closeness to my family that i used to be so fond of.

and yet, i do not regret living here even a little bit. i know wonderful people. and they made it all worthwhile. they know who they are. *thank u all*

I LOVE YOU IZZY

g'night pplz. im sorry that this post is so mushy.

y

[song? melt with you- mest ]
[mood? calm and content]

i had subway... it was so kick tush. i've been wanting subway for YEARS... ok maybe not years but DAYS!!! yes. and i finally got it... and it tasted so good.... *sigh* yummmmmmy yummmmmy YUM. :D

welll i got home from alinas today. i had fun today there.... i got to chill with izzy, alina, and steve all day. hehehe. :D alina is a strange lumpkins. steve is a funny lumpkins... and izzy is a SEXY lumpkins! or... SOXY?!?! hmm... lol.... jk. yepp yepp...

hehehe... subway. sorry. i got my schedule. francis is in all my classes but 1st period cycle. sammy has gym with us... he says hes gunna harass me like he did in 6th grade... OOooOO SO SCARY!!! lol... NOT.. mr hill will EAT him!! HAHAHHAHA.... well yepp..

im so mad.. my mom wont let me get pebbles for herbert OR more contacts. goodness. GRRRRR

things with izzy are going well... hes so great to me and perfect and :D im sooo HAPPY. goodness. just being around him is like *AWWWWWW I WUV YOU* hehehe. hes so great... MUAHAHHA. SMOOcH SMoOCH TO IZZY! i love him :D LOTS :D :D :D

mish mash smooshy smash :D :D :D

you all rock... :D

and... BITTEN FROM IZZY-
KISSES! SMOOCHEY!! SMOOCHEY!!!

hey izzy here

[song? ] a new hope-blink 182
[mood? ] sleepy


today was crazy. we started out at my house then migrated to alinas. we got steve, izzy, and ulises and just hung out. we were riding down monroe with a huge fishing pole. then we got to boulevard and got kicked out of the "deed park" by some wack security guard. then we went to izzys, had dinner and made a manual pad. lol... birgit saw the fire in his backyard so we almost got in trouble. alina made up a story on the spot about some bbq or something. and she bought it. hahaha.
so now im here. chewing gum, my eyes hurt.
well pplz... nighty night. i love you all

[song? ] a new hope-blink 182
[mood? ]sleepy


today was crazy. we started out at my house then migrated to alinas. we got steve, izzy, and ulises and just hung out. we were riding down monroe with a huge fishing pole. then we got to boulevard and got kicked out of the "deed park" by some wack security guard. then we went to izzys, had dinner and made a manual pad. lol... birgit saw the fire in his backyard so we almost got in trouble. alina made up a story on the spot about some bbq or something. and she bought it. hahaha.
so now im here. chewing gum, my eyes hurt.
well pplz... nighty night. i love you all god jessa to lazy izzy did this praise me

[song? come out swinging- offspring ]
[mood? GAHHHHHHHHHHH]


hey hey hey. HEY. im here. with alina. and we're at my house. and im talking to izzy... but hes getting mad cuz im not talking enough. AHHH thats y im all freaked out.... hey... did u ppl kno im going out with him now? well yea. i AM and im happy... i hope he is too. :D

yea well life is good. yesterday was great.... yea.. welllllll anyway. i mean GREAT like super awesum. yea yea yea. uh huh. oh and im typing like this cuz im trying to type really fast cuz yea. izzy is waiting. yea. ummmmmmm today... i chilled and slept it was good i didnt really do anything else tho until alina came over. then we went to walgreens and shit. it was... ok. but yea... yepp. my house is boring cuz we're POOR. gah. im not used to this but oh well. i kno. im a spoiled bitch... yepp yepp yepp... and i sorry for that.

herbert is doing good... hes my hermit crab for those of you who dont already know. yea

shit i have to do my summer work this week... all of it. lmfao.... hahahahhaha yes. ALL OF IT. welll not counting the SS i started... but we all did that.. we did that before school ended. yea im scared. our science teached next year talks like a robot and the science woman AND ms sheridan already yelled at me. i think the science thing is ms mariani . w/e i cant spell her name.

i got new mechanical pencils. its crazy theyre .09 mm lead which is CRAZY thick. and i got my math notebook cuz i need it for my summer work. hehehhee. yea. YEA.... well anyway.. im gunna go now. YEP. god its annoying typing like this. i promise u guys i wont do this anymore.

anyway... MY READERS ROCK :D

night ppl. luv ya izzy.

[song? criminal- fiona apple]
[mood? jppy]

mann... today was a pretty good day. i didnt do anything special on a board... i wish i could ollie or SOMETHING... i really have to start practicing. anyway, i pretty much hung out with alina steve and izzy all day. it was loads of fun :D

well anyway. tomoro im gunna chill with my mom and sleep... BUT IM REALLLY EXCITED ABOUT IT :D :D :D its gunna be great... muahhahaha.... YES. im so jppy that its crazy. i thought i messed it all up, but it turned out ok. :D

oh... and i found someone else who hates me today... oh well. i dont hate him, but he hates me. bleh! :(

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. i got him mad today.. i hope he knows im sorry.... and even tho i dont show it, i DO love you. :*

alright gotta publish
night pplz

DAYS LEFT TO SCHOOL: 13

-and i still havent done any of my summer work... im gunna do it next week. :D

[song? ] "why dont you get a job"- the offspring
[mood? ] calm and happy

hey ppl. im at alinas. BUT I FORGOT HERBERT!!! hes gunna die in the hands of my mother.i just KNOW IT!!! gahhh!!! if he dies... my mom is gunna smack me. i promised her i wouldnt kill him. and now shes never gunna let me get another pet if its not a dog or cat*tear*i hope he'll be fine when i get back on wednesday.i hope he'll be fine when i get back on wednesdaymy mom is probly gunna let him die. and then shes gunna say "JESSA I TOLD U SO. NO FERRET FOR YOU!!!"oh poor herbert. even tho he was a retard, i still loved him.

well today was good. except izzy fwelt bad. which was bad for me. other than him going off, the day was good. well, beside the part where this crazy mexican man looked at my ass. *tear* it was awful... oh well. im gunng try and convince myself that steve was lying to me. but he looked so scared after the man said that... he like. RAN AWAY FROM THE GUY.

other than that, not much happened... so good night pplz.

-many thanx to izzy for posting this for me tho. he rox :D

I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH HES SO PERFECT... heheheh i LOOOOOOVE him. :D :D :D

g'night

[song? happy tree friends theme song :D]
[mood? florbant. i bet you dont kno what that means. good. CUZ I DONT EITHER AHHHH]

welll... today was the best day ever. i hung out with HIM all day. it was great. GREAT. oh so great. it was SOOO much fun. no sarcasm or anything. i had a REALLY REALLY great day. mmmm. today was so good. i love today... and HIM. HEHEHEHEHEHHEHHE. it was so crazy. in a good way. :D so happy... so so happy.

welllllllllll. IM SMUSHY!! IM SO SMUSHY BUT YOU LOVE IT!!! I KNOW YOU DO!! !MUAAHAHAHA. ok... just THINKING about today made me like this... ahh! lol

i found emma and amanda today. they were with dillon. hes so adorable. he made out with my knee tho... it was pretty crazy. that boy loves to be spun around... its so cute. that boy is a future skater... he got ahold of a skateboard today, and was ROLLIN... lol... yea right. hes still cute tho.

thats just about it. THATS JUST ABOUT IT!?!?! NOOOOOO.

*commercial break*
~~cheerios commercial "it lowers your cholesterol!!!"~~

hehe... i HATE cheerios. they BLOW. ugh!!! EWWW theyre so nasty!!! well anyway ima go... chill with alina and be sleepy... until we sleep. which will probly b awhile. its ok tho.

ok then. CHEERIO OLD CHAPS!!! hehehe

[song? handle this- sum 41]
[mood? scared oh so scared]

BRACES. TOMORROW. 12 NOON. CRAZY JEW DENTIST. MY TEETH. PAIN... lots and lots of pain. but its ok. IM HAPPY ABOUT IT. when i get my braces off, im gunna bleach my teeth and have perfect straight movie star teeth... and my smile will be DAZZLING and not cuz all the metal in it. its gunna be fabulous. :D :D :D i cant wait. but until then, its gunna b painful... very painful. last time, i came out with a headache, and a fucking plastic plate at the top of my mouth. ugh.

yea... welll... i should b excited about going to the beach tomoro... but im not. i dont like the beach... and normally the boardwalk would b fun, but im gunna b there with myself and a bunch of adults... so thats gunna blow. im gunna try and get a hermit crab... those things rock. MUAHHAA... it would b SOOO much better if HE could come.. damn.. but i dont think my mom would approve. lol... yea. oh well... :(

i get to keep my table until i move. ty izzy. i was too scared to ask alina to keep it for longer... oh well. :D

i cant wait until i can actually skateboard.... thats gunna b so much fun. im gunna try really hard... and its gunna be great. :D MUAHAHHA!!! iM GUNNA TERRORIZE THE CITY!!! ON WHEEEELLLSSS!!!!! hehehehehe

i tried to convince my mom to get us a ferret in cali. ferrets r so cute. she said no... but if i present her with more info, she might say yes. she just needs to be informed of the proper ferret care... man.. those things are ADORABLE. but if i get one, i cant get a cat. so.. im not sure yet. but a ferret would be so awesum... oh well... i have to check that out. :D

man... i got to talk to HIM alot today... HEHEHHEHEHEHEH :D im so happy.. HE MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!! hehehe.... i just wanna SMOOCH him lol... :D

welll..... im out pplz. i hope u all know i luv ya lots. but i love him more :D

[song? wrong way- sublime ]
[mood? content]

today.. was pretty boring. i pretty much slept all day. i helped mum out with the house and stuff.... and then she made me go food shopping by myself. it was terrifying.

i will NEVER go food shopping by myself at stop and shop ever again. i am officially terrified. there were creepy men at the deli and they were really weird. and then the cashier was crying as she was ringing up the groceries... it was scary.

well... anyway. i bought the coolest stuff.... i spent like... $75 on anything i wanted. it was so cool. i got kinda pissed off tho, cuz i couldnt get my new toothbrush. i want a new toothbrush. the one i have is old. BLEH. and i find this messed up. my mom will give me her fricken credit card to go food shopping, but she wont give me 20 to go to walgreens. man.... that BLOWS.

i talked to ppl today. that was good. i talked to HIM today... :D that was VERY good.

and im probly gunna have to do all my summer work from school... i should probly get started on some of that sometime soon. lol...

welll..... TA TA PPLZ

-ps... I LOVE HIM

[song? traces- enigma]
[mood? calm]

man... this song ALWAYS calms me down... its crazy. i thank franshiz for downloadin it on my comp when he was here. *sways with music*

well... yea. today was fun. i slept alot... and then we got izzy from work... and chilled at alinas till like.... 6 when we got steve... and then he took his board away from me after accusing me of fucking it up. which i probly did... oh well. *sorry steve!* and.... then mum came and got me, and here i am.

at alinas, i spent like... the entire time trying to get my hair ties back from izzy... i like tackled him and STILL couldnt get them back... that boy is ridiculously strong. lol...

well... the rest of the week seems action packed. except tomorrow and wednesday. tomorrow and wednesday, i plan to sleep all day... and b online and be lazy. it sounds good to me. if i get really bored, i'll catch up with emma and amanda. on thursday i get my braces in the morning, and go to the shore that afternoon. on friday night, we leave the shore. on saturday, i help mom out with the house all day. BLEH.

man.... my back is itchy... ahhh... there we go *scratches back* :D

well... i talked to ryan today. he was all happy cuz he was chillin with these puerto rican chicks at the beach today. lol... and he had hung out with a hooker all day in queens a while ago. he was so happy... its good when my friends r happy. lol.... even if it WAS hookers that made them happy.

but yea. life is good, i love HIM and thats all. g'night ppLz!

[song? down- good ol' blink 182]
[mood? satisfied]

well... im filthy, exhausted, and i probly smell awful.. but im really happy. today, i got alot better at riding. this time, i... ALMOST kinda.. kept up with alina and izzy. ok. so i was no where NEAR keeping up with them. but im still proud. i only fell 3 times today. lol... im still super slow... but thats too damn bad. they want me to learn, so they have to wait for me to catch up too. damn i need my own board.... oh well. i'll bug mum into buying me one. i do NOT need ppl to get me a board (IZZY)!!!

well... yea today was good. we went down to tonelle and 81st by my old house and rolled around there.... we were so poor.... but... we had many adventures along the way. apparently the starbucks in target doesnt accept starbucks cards... that made me mad. i NEEDED a venti strawberries and cream frap. oh well....

my new vans are loverly. even tho they gave me a blister its cuz theyre new. so i forgive them. alina says they'll wear in, and i rust her so im just gunna stick with em.

and... OMG i get my braces thrusday. ewwie ewwie ewwie. izzys crazy. he thinks braces r cool. everyone else just laughs at me. my poor wittle teeths!!! i hate to think of the pain they will endure this thurday. :(

oh... and my mom.. is crazy. CRAZY.... just thought yall should kno that. :D

MOOSHY MOOSHY... yepp.. thats HIM i *HEART* him... sigh

well... ta ta for now.

[song? this love- maroon 5 ]
[mood? JOYFUL/HAPPY]


god... today was like.. the best day of my life. i went out with HIM today. we went all around clifton... and made out on a bridge... lol... the cars honked it was funny. we just went around and talked... and then we went out to dinner with my mom and she said he was "sweet and charming" she loved him... it was great. i want to live this day over and over and over again
i love him so much.

poor poor alina. shes going crazy. she needs to get over izzy... really she does. i understand she loved him and all, but if he doesnt feel the same way anymore, she should move on.

sammy... i miss him. and francis too. and jamie and becca. i havent seen that bunch in ages. :(

well... i need to publish this

[song? overdrive- katy rose]
[mood? OVERJOYED]

well... today was lazy in the best way. i just chilled at home. hugged my dog. kissed the mom. did the laundry. that type of thing. its good to be home. i missed my chair.... :D i missed the convos with my mom. we had a big one today about religion and philosophy. shes one of the few ppl who arent ignorant. and although her views on the subject are different from mine, we still understand and respect each other. its really cool.

im gunna chill and catch up with her tomoro. umm... dont call or anything unless its important. cuz we might be like... out or something. and i have a nasty habit of forgetting to turn my phone off. so... just be nice and dont call me... lol. no offense ppl!! i cant wait until tomoro.

well... in other news, alina and izzy broke up.... very odd. alinas devastated... poor girl. she needs to get over him tho. izzy is coping pretty well. its a pity she thinks he doesnt care anymore. he DOES... just... he cares for her like a friend now. but... shes like... having a weird breakdown type thing.

well... i heard from emma.. that was good. i told her i was moving soon and the poor thing started crying! :'( but other than that she was good. she told me that samantha held a party at samanthas house with all her ghetto friends, so shes grounded for the rest of the summer and can only hang out with emma. so... emmas pissed cuz shes stuck with sam.... HAHA. sorry emma, i feel for ya.

and i talked to franshiz today. that was good. i missed my guy pal. its good to know hes alive.... lol. and i talked to jamie. and thats pretty much it.

damn... i have like... 60 emails... that i have to check. damnit.

lol.... well... TTYL pplz!!

I LOVE HIM... and i guess my readers too. :D

[song? slip like space- armor for sleep]
[mood? happy, but pissed at my dad]

today was fun fun fun. but then again, almost all my days r fun.... i dont kno y. its just some kind of fun-disorder that i must have. izzy went to work. there were movies at alinas while he did that. then we went with him to the high school with him while he got his schedule. taco bel happened, and then he skated off into the horizon... back to work. lol... but yea. after that he came back, and alina had to go to the fat man. while alina did that izzy and i wandered around. we got alina back and then chilled. we skated around... i borrowed steves board, since he cant use it anyway. alina says she gives me a perfect ten points for trying to skate. i fell on my ass coming around a cornoer tho... oh well. nothings broken. that was at this cool spanish street party type thing that the wny cops held. then, right at the end of alinas block i couldnt resist the urge to skate, and in that minute, i practically ran over izzy. poor guy... i popped something out on his shoulder.. i felt really bad, but its ok now. he said it was better now.

and now, im happy, but otherwise pissed at my good for nothing father because i was just thinking abour all the SHIT that i was put through becuz of him. i unloaded on alina, and i give HER ten stars for patience with me.

i go home tomoro mornin... well.. nighty night ppl

-i LOVE HIM

[song? megalomaniac- incubus]
[mood? mooshy!!!]

i kno u ppl are probly mad about this by now, but im going to tell you what i did today. first, i woke up. then we took izzy to work, and when we got back, i fell asleep while watching movies. i got to see the italian job before i passed out though... i think thats my fav seth green film. its cool... he plays this nerdy hacker guy... hes just so cute lol... but yea. then we got izzy for lunch, chilled in alinas, and then took him back. when he got out of work, we went and chilled around the place.

all of this was without steve... cuz the poor boy is grounded for another 3 weeks. no one can go in or out b/c he wont apologize to his mother for saying that he hated her and wished he could move out after he broke a glass duck that she got. odd story, i know.

after that, we went down to blvd, where izzy and i had a good long chat. he needed to get some things off his chest... alina went over to julios for the 2 hours that i was talking to him. im glad we had that talk... i think we both really needed it.

we came back, hung out, and ended up at izzys house, where he and alina messed with her board. btw- he finally tightened the trucks on his new bam board so now he can ride normally and everything. his "daughter" is ultra cute... she was playing with the wheels on alinas board.... SOOO cute. then we stayed for some really good watermelon... and i dont usually like watermelon. then.............. we pretty much went home after izzy got harassed by some kid who accused izzy of spitting gum on him.... which he DID.... lmao... ita all good tho. still funny. and now izzys takin a bath and im here bloggin. wait... he just got back.

ook... im gunna go blog for izzy.... ttyl pplz

i *heart* HIM

[song? hit the floor, linkin park]
[mood? mooshy!!!]

hot pockets... they rock. i just needed to tell u guys that.

today was... a pissed off day... but good pissed off... like... messing around pissed off.. lol.... i had to be held down like.... 3 times, for different reasons... usually involving steve. lol.... im over it now tho... its all good. there was a computer crisis but it got fixed... and steve had a fight with his mom.... luckily tho, izzy cheered him up by offing hookers in spanish and then giving him a lap dance.... lol. then there was a thing with an ass towel, but we wont get into that.

lol.... alrighty. today was super fun fun. other than that.... i cant remember. but... yea. i go back home tomoro. :(

ook... nighty night night... i LOOVE him and i guess some of you too. lol....

dust homies. lmao.. NO. just dust.

[song?korn- adidas ]
[mood? gangsta...lmfao... NO... tired actually... yet with WAY too much energy]

today...ultra fun. we went down to edgewater, shot some skate footage of izzy, and then caught a movie. harold and kumar go to whitecastle- kick ass movie, you should ass go watch it. yes...

*harold and kumar go to whitecastle commercial*

then we were skating around in front of the theater as we waited for a cab, and we got told to stop skating (more like izzy, alina, and steve got asked to stop skating) by this security guard. RIGHT after he stopped talking, izzy set down his board, skated two feet and then realized what he'd just been told. after that, the godamn security gaurd kicked us off the property. we couldnt get a cab, and birgit wouldnt pick us up cuz the godamn elevator was broken, ans she was too damn lazy to walk the stairs. so.. we walked up a huge ass hill to whitecastle, where we bought way too many burgers and got asked for drugs. lmao... then we took a bus home... in all, i had LOTS of MUCH super fun. :D :D :D

-well... i LOVE him, and i will catch you all later.

[song? what it is to burn- finch]
[mood? sweepy]

today was ultra super good. we got steve and izzy and hung around all over the place. we went to this bike shop and met this kik ass guy named pablo as he was fighting with his boss... his boss called me STUPID!!!!! i can take insults, just NEVER to my intelligence. dont EVER call me stupid. we called the cops on him, but nothing happened because i didnt want my mom to come in. they had the cutest dog at the shop.... i just wanted to HUG it!!! izzy got a new board... its a pink bam board :D it rocks... i have to fix the griptape for him tho.... someone remind me to do that tomoro.... today i mean.. but later.

today was extra super special... i had extra super lots of fun... :D

i LOVE him so much.... :D hehehe

talk to ya all later!!! probly...

-ps. steve ma skate faster, but i can TYPE faster!!! OH WHAT NOW STEVE!!!! lol....

[song? ..eh no song... just erik snoring lol]
[mood? sad sad sad]

hey... today was a really good day. steve came back, we wandered around. and it was good. we went over to blvd and then back to steves house... he was looking at porn, so he cant do shit on aol. lmao... then izzy stole my shirt accidently... i forgive him tho... its not like i wasnt wearing a bra. lol... then my mom called.

the house sold today. its being bought. im gunna leave in like... a month or so... god i dont want to... my mom misses being around family tho, i understand that. i guess i never realized how lonely she was, because i have my own family here in nj. i feel so guilty for abandoning everyone... i remember in 6th grade, i got called a DITCHER for walking away from my group of friends while they were talking... imagine what im gunna get called now. at least i get to look forward to visits from izzy and alina. and possibly becca... who said she was going to stalk me. lol...

 
to anyone who reads this, im so sorry. just... please. i want everyone to be happy for me. i want to remember all my friends happy. i dont need memories of people being sad just because im moving.... and also, even if i dont look like i care that im moving, i do. i dont want to leave you guys. but i have be strong... i cant break down and cry. no matter how much that would help. i dont want you all to remember me cring right before i move. i want everyone to remember the fun times i had with them. the good memories.

im so sorry.
but you guys will move on. and if you dont, i'll come back and MAKE YOU.

i love you all. especially him. nighty night

[song? warning- incubus]
[mood? doomed]

well... my life officially ends in two weeks. i have to get top braces on august 12, 2004 at 12 noon. i will never smile again... noooo!!! i LIKE smiling... but... my teeth will be so hideous that i wont want anyone to see them ever again. *tear* izzy said that its a good thing... he said it will be more fun for the guy im kissing, as long as the guy doesnt have braces too. i dont think hes right tho... hes probly the only guy who thinks braces are cool. :(

my mom told me that on thursday, we find out of this couple are going to buy the house.  she thinks theyre going to. if they buy the house, i only have another month here in nj. in that case, i might not start school here. i dont even know anything. i told becca that i would buy her a going away present. after all, just because im moving doesnt mean that she doesnt deserve a present. lol... im going to miss nj. hopefully cali wont b that bad.

well... alina and i are bored out of our minds. BORED i tell you. bored SHITLESS. i want to go somewhere... anywhere... wny preferably.

love to all...

-ps- lucky for me, he doesnt have braces.

[song? ailver and cold- afi]
[mood? upset]

well.... my day is going to end badly. it was good up until now. VERY GOOD.... GREAT even. we went around.... we waited for izzy to get out of work, (i got to sleep while he was at work) and after that i just watched alina and him skate. it was lots of fun.  but damnit... i screwed things up.

izzy isnt talking to alina or myself. just another person to hate me... but i guess i should get used to that. i hope he knows im sorry, but i have no choice in moving. if i could, i would stay. im sick of losing friends. tree i hope he forgives... soon.

well, now that im sad, as well as izzy (as said in his blog) im gunna go listen to depressing music and wallow in my self pity.

i wish HE were here... then i would be so much happier.... even if he didnt talk to me, just him being around makes me so much happier.

until much later... i love you all.

[song? give me one good reason-blink 182 ]
[mood? tetris-y]

today was lots and lots and lots and lots of fun. we went to breakfast with izzy. we hung around the place and walked down to 32nd street. we checked out all the stores, staples, shop rite, toys 'r' us, and petland were particularly fun. before we left we caught a 2 dollar showing of kill bill vol. 2, but missed half of it. on the way home we went to mcdonalds.

and the biting continued. on the way home, izzy thought up an unusually torturous game. one person would be restrained by two others and every 50 steps the two other people would bite the person. although fun, it was slightly painful and earned us many strange looks on bergenline.

we got home and got the skateboards. as usual, alina and izzy skated off down the street. it was cool, i watched them skate and it was fun. but then in a slow moment, izzy abandoned his board and i just hopped on! WITHOUT FALLING!!!!

and then a miracle happened.

i peddled!!!! WITHOUT FALLING!!!! i went an entire 12 feet!!!! WITHOUT FALLING!!!!

*tear* im so proud. *pats self on back*

and then we stalked izzy home... but i think he knew we were there.

thats pretty much it. it was a good day. and g'nite

p.s. i love HIM.

[song? PotC music is playing cuz we're watchin the movie again]
[mood? jppy= joyful+happy!!!]

today, from start to finish was a good day. :D!!! we had super ultra much fun. we is alina, izzy, and myself. it started out just walking around looking for skateble places. it started to rain, so we went into this chinese food place, and the two people MADE me eat a huge nasty eggroll. it was awful.... and nasty... and EW!!!! but anyway, after that, we dropped off the boards and headed to east and west (one of the best stores you will ever get to see) and ended up buying poppy things, smoke bombs, and stickers. *life is good* on the way back, we ran into one of their other friends, hussien. he was cool. we walked around and skated with him until we went to victors house. damn victor is scary. after that, hussein split and the three of us were again left to ourselves. after that, we just kinda chilled... all over the place. right before we went in, there was... an INCIDENT!!!!

now.. this wasnt just ANY incident. it all started out when the boy stole my hair tie. we got into a bit of a misunderstanding, in which he bit me and i almost strangled him. alina, of course, ever the NEUTRAL friend, decided not to get involved. and though it was wise, i could have used the help. its ok though, i dont blame her. and as we got by alinas house, i pulled izzys hair...and he pulled mine... so i ended up on the ground. and then we started with the newspapers. leamsy and her friend joined in... and that sucked for izzy. they just kept hitting him with newpapers, and then they took it too far and got him with a WET newpaper that was still in the plastic. owwie. but after they left, alina and izzy thought they should gang up on ME then. i disagreed, but of course they didnt listen!!!! >:O lol... its all good tho. first, we got izzy... and therer were remarks about biting off his balls....  it was bad. but in then end, he was unharmed, and his family jewels remained intact. then they got ME!!! it was scary!! they tickled me, SAT on me, tried to tangle my hair, made me lose an earing (but i'll get that back tomoro), they TOOK my shoes, threw me against not only the floor but like... trees, houses, cars, and EVERYTHING. and on top of it all, there was the BITING!!!!!!! 

almost everytime anyone got caught, they got bitten.. HARD. i think i got the hardest/worst bite, but alina and izzy got more bites than me.... so its pretty even. i have a huge ass hicky on one of my shoulder blades now. from izzy.  THAT WAS MY FIRST HICKY. and i got it in a play fight while my hair was being pulled... lmfao. oh well.. i dont regret it. it was fun anyway, and it just stopped stinging, so im jppy.  :D alina has like... two big bite marks on one of her arms, and probly more on her back. izzy has about six tiny hickys all over his shoulders. lol.

well.. it was fun as hell, and we should all do that more often. there was belt lashing (i probly have huge red marks across my ass) , tickling, newpaper throwing.. ahh... it was super super fun. i will get over the loss of my earing. i needed new ones anyway.

oh, and my mom is seriously crazy. she called me today (right after i got my cell back from izzy *good timing*!!!) and wanted me to go home to fix the f*cking aol!!! she called 20 min later and said it worked then. UGH!!! i wanted to kill her!!! ruin MY time, with MY friends, because she cant get on aol?!?!? FUCK THAT.

well.... anyway. i *heart* him, and i miss francis (nevada cant be THAT fun!!!), and much love to all the other friends that might read this...

dust.

[song? superman-eminem ]
[mood? lazy]

today- helped the mom, played in the rain, chilled with the ppl. it was boring. Overall.

[song? superman- eminem ]
[mood? lazy]

eh.... im being FORCED to blog *glares at izzy* blooody evil.. ppl. well... anyway...

today was uneventful... as are most my days. i helped the mother. played in the rain... and chilled with the ppl.

birgit is making us sleep now... so nighty night ppl. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!... not.

you... all smell like CHEESE... stupid cheesy.. butts.

[song? glory fades again.. i love this song!!!]
[mood? eh]

hmm... today was uneventful.. at first there was a big drama about the camping and everything... so that was annoying.. but we're still going... even tho i think we should just chill in wny... w/e

i talked to sammy and becca again today.... i didnt realize how much i missed those guys... or um... girls? well... guy AND girl... yea. beccas gettin her ears pierced this weekend. its so exciting!!! lol... but yea... it was good to kno at least THOSE two are alive. sammy and i are planning a big movie thing on aug 1, because we miss the gang. we think everyone should be around.. but nothin is final yet... so yea.

i *heart* him... hehehe. hes so adorable... :D i havent seen him in AGES and i MISS him!!! we were talking for like.. hours yesterday... and he said the SWEETEST things ever. i just LOVE him!!! *giggles hysterically* he makes me sooo happy!!! :D

well... i have a dentist app. next tuesday... at 415.. not that you ppl CARE, but im scared. dentists and doctors are all PERVS... and theyre creepy... and eww... and i hate my orthodontist... hes creepy... and so is his assistant.. i HATE MY BRACES!!!! gahhh!!! they huwt...owwie!!!

in other news, jessa STILL hasnt started her summer work, even though she said she would. oh well... if you actually thought she was going to, you must not know her very well.... THE MASTER PROCRASTINATOR STRIKES AGAIN!!! moo hahahahaha~!!! yes.. thats right! FEAR ME!!!

uh... yea... w/e ... g'nite pplz. i love you all. very much. cuz if you read this, it means you love me... but if you read that, and you DONT love me, thats too bad. because you just agreed to lovine me... because you read it!!! HA!!! YOU LOVE ME!!!  I KNOW YOU DO!!!

eh... byeZ!

[song? i melt with you- mest]
[mood? squirmy]

an odd event occured today. alina and i were loitering beside walgreens and some ghetto dude and his dog come up to us and was like, do i know either of you? i said NO, and then he offered us haze. then i kinda fought with him tell him him go away... and then he was like.. shut the fuck up, so i said that back.... and then he kept walking. DAMN STRAIGHT FUCKER. the entire time alina was like.. texting izzy. it was funny.

well... i still get the chills thinking of him... and on top of that... i feel really bad becuz this weekend i was gunna go on a date with him... but then i decided alina needed me to go camping more. i was gunna go to the library to get some summer work done, but i'll probly just copy from other ppl or something. :D (did i mention that francis is the coolest guy ever? *ass kissing always works!*) but anyway. the date was all planned and everything. he spend a bunch of money already... and now i feel really super bad.... he paid to have us driven around in an escalade!!! thats CRAZY!!!! but i still feel like a bitch for cancelling on him. :(

well... its miercoles. the middle of the week. what JOY. i hate wednesdays. and mondays... and tuesdays... and thursdays... and sundays... friday only sucks a little bit... and saturday sux ASS becuz u kno its gunna end eventually and that you have to wait an entire week for the next one.

until later... i LOVE HIM!!!

[song? sic transit gloria... glory fades- brand new]
[mood? HEHEHE]

today was rather uneventful. i saw i robot with the mother. good movie. will smith is STILL cool. it was strange and made you think. but i think the book would have been better.

hehehe!!! i cant get enough of him :D its so great.... i love him!!!! muahaha!!! i bet i scare him... but oh well. thats just TOO BAD. hes so perfect... I WANT HIM!!!

well yea... thats pretty much it... TA TA TILL TOMORROW!!

[song? a favor house atlantic- coheed and cambria]
[mood? :D]

hey ppl. its cool to be back. campin was fun, just in case u were wondering. but yea. we came back early cuz it was raining there... but its still cool cuz we got to chill with izzy. :D alina was happy. lol...

we wondered around wny today. it was good until the end... but i wont bring that up. i might go camping next weekend too. im not sure yet. i'll have to check it out.

and SMACK to francis. he left without calling me!!! nevada for 12 days!!! bleh! at least he had the decency to ask sammy to say bye for him. BYE FRANCIS! HOPE UR HAVIN FUN!!!.

yes... well... thats all for now folks. :D i love all my readers. some more than others. they know who they are. lol.

adios.

ps- loyalty is a necessity in all relationships. learn this before it becomes a pain in the ass. *just more jessa advice*

[song? fever for the flavor- hot action cop]
[mood? uhhh]

well... im waiting for alina to pick me up so we can be off to camp. poor izzy has to stay behind for some unknown/devastating reason. but yea. alina and i will have way too much room in the back of the car :(

in other news, hooray!!! i just got the offspring "hit that lyrics" so now i wont annoy ppl by singing the ONE part of the song over and over and over again!!! :D

and, folks, yes its true. jessas in love. lol.

tty... on monday night or tuesday. call the cell if you have to talk to me before then.

and to sammy and brenna and them, im SOOO sorry i missed ur band camp play :( please forgive me!!!

ttyl homies.