[song? she loves me not- papa roach]
[mood? dunno]

well... spring break begun like... yesterday. woo! btw that was an unentusuastic woo. not lots is happnin this spring break. im goin to the movies today... and then shoppin on tuesday w/ jams and becca.

latest drama- on friday, as we were walkin home emma said i wore a thong. so now theres this bog thing and sam and emma hate me cuz i called sam a hooker. well she is. shes the one who wears thongs and flashes her fat ass around the place. i mean really. no one wants to see that. amanda is the only one who will talk to me now. which is odd, cuz normally she side w/ emma. im glad that she didnt abandon me tho. its cool to not be alone in this kinda thing for once. but now sam like.. texts my phone and says "i hate you" and i just say "dont call me or text me. and i really dont care if hate me." shes such a freak. i swear. and i dont know how emma could possibly fathom that I wear a thong!

i still havent started the mounds of hw we've been given. nor do i plan to do so anytime soon. i plan to sleep all vacation.

cha!

[song? "my friends over you" -NFG]
[mood? cha...]

umm... about that previous post.... that was before i talked to sammy... and he convinced me that it wasnt that bad. he also said it was aarons idea. that bloody midget! grrr.

it just started raining. im suddenly a bit happier.

anywayz, i was thinkin about moving at the end of school... becuz i remembered franshiz sayin in gym that he didnt want me to move... *sentimental moment*... enough of that. well... i wrote another poem about it. im posting this one on fictionpress. thats why franshiz's name is spelt normally. it only about my school friends... it was more about leaving school... i feel bad about leaving alina out. (no offense to her)

theres no apostrophes because of STUPID html. its usually between i and ll. now theres just spaces. :(

Moving

Ive grown to fear hearing *we ll miss you.*
Trust me, i already know.
Im so tired of hearing your plans for after;
Im still not sure I want to go.

Dont kid yourself,
I wont keep in touch.
I ll move far far away,
And you wont miss me much.

I hope I remember
The fun times we had.
We all had our moments
The good and the bad.

I wont miss the house,
The parks, or church steeple.
Im torn, because I know
I ll only miss the people.

I ll sit right here, crying,
Wishing I could pack up all them.
Michelle, Brenna, Francis,
Sammy, Jamie, Becca, and Em.

yea... ok.. i realize i cant write poetry. but i try, and thats what counts.

till later.

[song? she loves me not- papa roach]
[mood? vengeful]

GAAAAAAH!!! i want to beat all of s-unit, minus jamie and (of course) myself, to a BLOODY PULP!!! sammy ESPECIALLY! those bloody gits... i SWAER to the TREE that they all will pay.

you know what they did?!??!?! they went and wrote a fake letter to me from chris asking me out. but they were stupid and asked mr lanz to staple it... and he found out what it was and refused. aparently chris dictated and sammy recorded. THEY WILL PAY. i would have said no anyway, but its the PRINCIPLE of it all. if i said yes, i would have been humiliated.

sammy said it was payback for when i kicked him into his locker, but i apologized for that AND he said not to worry about it. GAAAAAH. i want to smack them SO badly.

and EVERYONE knows. everyone. klett... ziegler... dielman... each conniving fiend knows. and its ALL sammys fault. it was his idea. and he was the one who blabbed that i used to like chris in the first place. if he could keep his mouth shut, none of this would have happened. and i FORGAVE him for that. but no. he wanted to push it. well LETS SEE HOW MUCH HE LIKES PAYBACK!!!

those idiots will never mess with Jessa Ragan Byrne ever again if they value their ability to mate.

until i've been avenged-

[song? german. jewish- ghost of the robot]
[mood? painy]

just got back from ice skatin. it was painful. we messed with amanda and her new bf. his name is david gensinger. hes cool. i annoyed him. amanda got mad. haha. jamie thought he liked her. HA. not. when he asked if jamie had a bf, he was already w/ amanda.
i didnt get to see jr. and i hate to admit it, but that was like... the only reason i went. *ew* amanda noticed me lookin at him. (he was there for like 2 seconds for hockey in the beginning) she told emma. damn. oh well.

p.s.- my b-day didnt suck that bad. i posted before i saw alina. she brought izzy, and though we fought, it wasnt that bad. we went and walked around in the rain and he killed worms while i tried to stop him. everyone had fun. then i want to carvel with emma. i love her brothers. they are the most adorable things i have ever seen.

well sleep overwhelms me. nighty night.

[song? cant get my head around you- the offspring]
[mood? pissed]

happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me.. happy birthday dear jessa... happy birthday to me...

this has got to be the most pathetic b-day EVER. sammy and lea were the only people who honestly remembered my birthday. and maybe brenna and franshiz. :( i feel so unloved... oh well. i'll get over it i guess. emma totally forgot this morning. she was too engrossed with her new phone. ugh. im pretty sure my brother forgot, and i had to remind my mom. but its kinda understandable becuz she was half asleep. but STILL. then she invited alina and birgit and eric over when i already have plans w/ emma. i got poked and punched all day. i got two hugs, from lianne and viola. that was nice. ms matesic didnt put my b-day up on that board... nor did she give me a bookmark or pencil or whatever. the only good bit i got was the two homework passes in science. that was awesum. and lea's gift. that bear she gave me was SO cute. the brenna/franshiz card was cute too. i got PAJAMA pants from WALGREENS from my mom. and im only gettin a hundred bucks for my entire b-day. fuck. i wanna go sleep.. but i cant cuz alina and them are comin over. SHIT.

gunna go DIE now.

[song? cant let u go- fabulous]
[mood? ugh]

just got back from alinas... i've been there since friday. yea... i DID see izzy. and now he like... hates me. i called him a nerd. just when i thought we could get along... oh well. yea... while i was there i got taken home (or back to alina's place) by the cops. haha. it was fun. this gang of dominicans called izzy a fag... so as we passed i called them gaylords. then i stopped and alina started spewing off foul names. then we both screamed "cocksuckers" at the top of our lungs... so the dominicans started like... chasing us with bats and rocks. we walked like 10 blocks with about 15 of them chasing us before alina called the cops. izzy took off because he had lied to the cops on the phone about what he had been wearing. then i pointed out that if they found him, which they owuld becuz they would track alina's phone number, he would get in trouble for lying to the cops. so he rode home on his bike before the cops got there.

i must say, the backseat of a cop car is extremely uncomfortable. its all this weird grey plastic. and the cops we had were gay. honestly. GAY. as in they liked men. they probly butt-fucked each other when they had nothing else to do. and i swear, the one cop that took us up to alina's apartment, looked like he had sumthin stuck up his ass. *cringe* he probably did.

well, tomz is the start of a new mp, and francis and i have test best. *sweet*. i think jamie will have tb with us too. :D

and my b-day is in 3 days. WOO! im almost 13... echk. im gunna be OLD. and a teenager. oh well. its an excuse to party. XD

toodles.

[song? "glow" -alien ant farm]
[mood? snap crackle pop]

hmm... i forgot to post my top-bracey ness. well... since last tuesday i have been braced. they arent visible on the top in the front so i dont have a crippled smile :D... but yea... until recently.. (like the past two days) i've been drugged up on motrin and benadryl cuz the pain in my mouth irritated my sinuses and yea... it was bad. i was like... bitchy to everyone and i couldnt talk. the clean communities program had been last thursday... 2 days after i got the braces. i think people understood me when i read my poem tho cuz ppl i didnt kno came up and congratulated me. emma and francis were laughin the entire time i read my poem. then ross was in the front row making faces and makin me laugh as everyone else went.

todays field trip SUCKED. i dont think mrs colella planned very well... but i guess she couldnt have becuz she obviously didnt kno the place very well. we didnt get to see the roaches OR go to the gift shop. oh well. at least we got out of classes. on the bus back i got harassed by greg's he/she bird puppet, Toko. it was terrifying.

b-days comin up. so are report cards. i think i'll make honor roll. so that means huge shopping trip. i get my bribe money AND b-day money. its not as much as usual becuz we're trying to "conserve our resources" as my mom says. (save money) becuz shes unemployed. UGH. only $200. :(... wow... im so spoiled... but at least i know it.

well... just had to inform. ttyl.

[song? "Figured You Out" -Nickelback]
[mood? sleepy]

i havent posted, and for that i am sorry. but oh well. You'll get over it, cuz no one actually reads this anyway. well... i've been pretty good since last post. nothin has gone horribly and terribly wrong... therefor... im good. i cant wait till thursday... we get to wonder around the LSC and do nothin all day... i *heart* field trips. and then we have off for good friday. i plan to sleep. i *heart* being an athiest.

well... mums bugging me about doing my homework.... i feel like having a temper tantrum. i wanna scream "i dont wanna" and beat my fists on the floor. and wow... im so overly dramatic. then again, what can one expect from a teenage girl, if not drama?

uh oh... mum started to actually yell....
im oWt.