[song? pink panther theme]
[mood? echk]
YAY!!! i dont have to get my braces til next week! WOO! partay!
but... uh oh... this is my last week of FREEDOM...
i have realized that i have an unnatural liking of super glue. it can glue like... everything. its so fantabulous.
well, for once we dont have alot of hw. knowing me tho, i'll prolly b up til 2 am anyway.
dust!
Monday, March 22, 2004
[song? "I Feel So" -Boxcar Racer]
[mood? blank]
i am officially sick of having feelings/emotions. I've had almost every basic emotion in one day. I started the day out grumpy, cuz I had to wake up. then I was thankful, cuz anne got me a bagel. then in school sometime I was happy, cuz he who will not be named was there. and then eigth period I was bored, pissed off, and irritated (word of the day). andrew messinio like.. made the portion of my life that is eigth period living hell. first, theyre all sayin that i like chaunsey and his "nuts". fucking bullshit! hes a MIDGET. i swear, i hate short guys, excluding nabil, cuz u cant hate nabil. its im possible. and THEN i was worried for sammy, cuz he told me he got scoliosis. and then i was grateful, cuz sammy made me feel better about andrew. *sigh* its good to have good friends.
and now, im feeling lots and lots of denial. i kept tellin myself that i wouldnt miss them and that they wouldnt miss me. HA. aint happenin. even if they dont miss me, and celebrate when i move, i'll still miss them. *tear* (sentimental moment)
eww.... i've gotten like that "share your feelings at the end of the day" thing like in The Giver. man, that book is so gay. well, *correction* the ending is gay. the story is pretty good.
well, gunna do homework *hears gasps from the audience* oh shut up! *throws burnt cookies at them*
[mood? blank]
i am officially sick of having feelings/emotions. I've had almost every basic emotion in one day. I started the day out grumpy, cuz I had to wake up. then I was thankful, cuz anne got me a bagel. then in school sometime I was happy, cuz he who will not be named was there. and then eigth period I was bored, pissed off, and irritated (word of the day). andrew messinio like.. made the portion of my life that is eigth period living hell. first, theyre all sayin that i like chaunsey and his "nuts". fucking bullshit! hes a MIDGET. i swear, i hate short guys, excluding nabil, cuz u cant hate nabil. its im possible. and THEN i was worried for sammy, cuz he told me he got scoliosis. and then i was grateful, cuz sammy made me feel better about andrew. *sigh* its good to have good friends.
and now, im feeling lots and lots of denial. i kept tellin myself that i wouldnt miss them and that they wouldnt miss me. HA. aint happenin. even if they dont miss me, and celebrate when i move, i'll still miss them. *tear* (sentimental moment)
eww.... i've gotten like that "share your feelings at the end of the day" thing like in The Giver. man, that book is so gay. well, *correction* the ending is gay. the story is pretty good.
well, gunna do homework *hears gasps from the audience* oh shut up! *throws burnt cookies at them*
Sunday, March 21, 2004
[song? "its goin down" -the Xecutioners ]
[mood? wise]
i have figured out why i keep having dreams about jr. (yes, i've had other ones) its because i really miss him. i miss having a rival. i just realized, now that i dont hate ryan (and whats more, ryans my friend) that i dont have anyone that i hate in the ap classes. theres no one that i can be mean to, and shove my grades in their face. like... even if tom were still in the classes i wouldnt miss jr as much, but hes only there for science. i miss having someone to agrue with and trade sad disses with. like, the other day, i was having a "showdown" with one of the eigth graders im gunna meet at Lina's b-day, and i had so much fun. i used to do that with jr... *sigh*
and *ewwwww* i've gotten all "nice" i dont have anybody to hate! like... im mean to franshiz... but i dont actually mean it. and theres people who annoy me... but i just avoid them. the old me would have been cursin at them by now, those fuckin posers... mayb im only nice cuz im flattered... cuz all those people who annoy me hang around me cuz they wanna b "punk" ewww.... i mean, i wanted to b nice before i left, so everyone would miss me, but this is going to far. mayb thats y i was a bitch to sammy before.... cuz i wanted sumone to argue with...
in conclusion to my babble, i want someone to hate again. i cant wait to move and meet new people to hate. :D
(im so fucked up)
adios... (for like the third time today)
[mood? wise]
i have figured out why i keep having dreams about jr. (yes, i've had other ones) its because i really miss him. i miss having a rival. i just realized, now that i dont hate ryan (and whats more, ryans my friend) that i dont have anyone that i hate in the ap classes. theres no one that i can be mean to, and shove my grades in their face. like... even if tom were still in the classes i wouldnt miss jr as much, but hes only there for science. i miss having someone to agrue with and trade sad disses with. like, the other day, i was having a "showdown" with one of the eigth graders im gunna meet at Lina's b-day, and i had so much fun. i used to do that with jr... *sigh*
and *ewwwww* i've gotten all "nice" i dont have anybody to hate! like... im mean to franshiz... but i dont actually mean it. and theres people who annoy me... but i just avoid them. the old me would have been cursin at them by now, those fuckin posers... mayb im only nice cuz im flattered... cuz all those people who annoy me hang around me cuz they wanna b "punk" ewww.... i mean, i wanted to b nice before i left, so everyone would miss me, but this is going to far. mayb thats y i was a bitch to sammy before.... cuz i wanted sumone to argue with...
in conclusion to my babble, i want someone to hate again. i cant wait to move and meet new people to hate. :D
(im so fucked up)
adios... (for like the third time today)
[song? "My Friends Over You" - NFG]
[mood? Happy]
YaY!!! i changed the layout! well... only colors... but thats good enuff for me! im so proud... lol.... well, you know what they say. simple things please simple minds!
ugh... im stuck in the house.... and mom is on one of her cleaning binges. shes forcing me to totally reorganize my room... its really annoying... and shes also pissed off cuz her student is a total idiot and made her drive to wayne when the student had no models and forgot her contacts so she was blind....
smiles and huggles!
[mood? Happy]
YaY!!! i changed the layout! well... only colors... but thats good enuff for me! im so proud... lol.... well, you know what they say. simple things please simple minds!
ugh... im stuck in the house.... and mom is on one of her cleaning binges. shes forcing me to totally reorganize my room... its really annoying... and shes also pissed off cuz her student is a total idiot and made her drive to wayne when the student had no models and forgot her contacts so she was blind....
smiles and huggles!
[song? "i hate everything about you" - three days grace ]
[mood? confused]
man, im so evil. i just finished reading my book. in the book, the girl has to choose between a hot ghost that haunts her room but doenst notice her, and a hot guy who will show her the secrets and extent of her ghost-seeing powers. i kept thinkin, "just go with the hot guy... hes hot AND he had the secrets to power".... thats what i wouldve done.... but in the end he was evil and tried to kill the ghost and kidnap the girl. if the book had been me, i would be like.... raped and kidnapped by now. i always end up chosing the evil peoples.
anywayz, this morning... i woke up from the coolest dream. i dont usually have dreams that arent nightmares, but this morning i actually screamed at my mom to let me go back to sleep. i remember being so happy... scary part is, JR was in it.... well... him and chris.... and me.... (no, u perverts, it wasnt like that) but it reminded me of the good old times... in 6th grade with jr and tim and tom... *sigh* those were the days... i hated ryan and everything was good. we went to the movies and called jr's fanclub sluts.... *tear* the nacho cheese incident....
and with all this sappy remembrance, i also remember that im leaving clifton and all the memories here. i dont wanna move... in the past few days, i've like... gotten teary eyed at the stupidest things. like when we were talking about the dance at the environmental club meeting, i almost cried becuz i knew it was my last dance at woodrow... (mental note- make sure becca comes to the dance!)
and im also freaked out. i get my top braces on like... the 23rd. on the 27, im meeting a bunch of my friend's friends from school for her b-day. theyre all eigth graders, so its gunna be scary, but i figure i wont bail
because all we're doing is watching movies at her house... i mean, you dont talk much during movies right? they cant be that evil to me if we're not talking right? *gulp* either way, im scared as hell of meeting them.
and then on april fools, i have to go to some program at the high school and read a poem i wrote during homeroom. i had forgotten the night before that the environmental club had asked us to write a poem or draw a poster for the clean communites program... and now i'm the only person who has to read a poem... im kinda proud that they thought it was good enough, but its really scary having to go up on a stage and read a poem in front of an audience. im even introduced by people... its just freaky. at least francis and emma will b up there too.
and then on the third, theres the last dance... *sniffle*
ugh, i hate that song... "hotel" by cassidy and r. kelly. that is the WORST song on the face of the planet.
gotz ta go, luv ya tho
[mood? confused]
man, im so evil. i just finished reading my book. in the book, the girl has to choose between a hot ghost that haunts her room but doenst notice her, and a hot guy who will show her the secrets and extent of her ghost-seeing powers. i kept thinkin, "just go with the hot guy... hes hot AND he had the secrets to power".... thats what i wouldve done.... but in the end he was evil and tried to kill the ghost and kidnap the girl. if the book had been me, i would be like.... raped and kidnapped by now. i always end up chosing the evil peoples.
anywayz, this morning... i woke up from the coolest dream. i dont usually have dreams that arent nightmares, but this morning i actually screamed at my mom to let me go back to sleep. i remember being so happy... scary part is, JR was in it.... well... him and chris.... and me.... (no, u perverts, it wasnt like that) but it reminded me of the good old times... in 6th grade with jr and tim and tom... *sigh* those were the days... i hated ryan and everything was good. we went to the movies and called jr's fanclub sluts.... *tear* the nacho cheese incident....
and with all this sappy remembrance, i also remember that im leaving clifton and all the memories here. i dont wanna move... in the past few days, i've like... gotten teary eyed at the stupidest things. like when we were talking about the dance at the environmental club meeting, i almost cried becuz i knew it was my last dance at woodrow... (mental note- make sure becca comes to the dance!)
and im also freaked out. i get my top braces on like... the 23rd. on the 27, im meeting a bunch of my friend's friends from school for her b-day. theyre all eigth graders, so its gunna be scary, but i figure i wont bail
because all we're doing is watching movies at her house... i mean, you dont talk much during movies right? they cant be that evil to me if we're not talking right? *gulp* either way, im scared as hell of meeting them.
and then on april fools, i have to go to some program at the high school and read a poem i wrote during homeroom. i had forgotten the night before that the environmental club had asked us to write a poem or draw a poster for the clean communites program... and now i'm the only person who has to read a poem... im kinda proud that they thought it was good enough, but its really scary having to go up on a stage and read a poem in front of an audience. im even introduced by people... its just freaky. at least francis and emma will b up there too.
and then on the third, theres the last dance... *sniffle*
ugh, i hate that song... "hotel" by cassidy and r. kelly. that is the WORST song on the face of the planet.
gotz ta go, luv ya tho
Friday, March 19, 2004
[song? "Tipsy" - J-Kwon]
[mood? guilty]
omg! i havent posted in FOREVER!!!!
and for that, i am sorry. but the guilt finally made me come back.
just got back from the student faculty game. the teachers won by like... i dunno.. a few points. the guys screwed it up for the students.
well... not much has been goin on. (hence the non-posty ness) just the same old homework all night and sleepy jessa all day. well.... ima go sleep or sumthin
[mood? guilty]
omg! i havent posted in FOREVER!!!!
and for that, i am sorry. but the guilt finally made me come back.
just got back from the student faculty game. the teachers won by like... i dunno.. a few points. the guys screwed it up for the students.
well... not much has been goin on. (hence the non-posty ness) just the same old homework all night and sleepy jessa all day. well.... ima go sleep or sumthin
Sunday, March 07, 2004
[song? none ]
[mood? happy/annoyed/bored/sleepy]
the old people left! the old people left! *runs around doing "the old people left" dance* it was really boring with them here. i constantly had to show them around... UGH...
im ALSO happy cuz i talked to izzy(friend's bf that i like) yesterday. and i was telling him about stuff... and we were both stressed... so he sent me this game... its so cool... u can like.. smash up ur desktop and put termites.. and they eat stuff and then you can squash the termites.... its just really cool. ....aparently he used to b suicical. hehe... that only makes him hotter. now he has that whole "broody-mysterious" thing goin on.
im annoyed and sleepy cuz i was up til like... 130 last night arguing with sammy. *sigh* thats all we ever do anymore. oh well. it will pass with time.
i still havent finished walkabout.... hell, i hardly started walkabout. that book will mark my doom. its due on thursday.... shit im so screwed.
i guess i should go start that... mayb i'll take a nap first....
anywayz, gotta go. luv ya tho. :D
p.s.- shout owtz to franshiz. the only person who might actually read this.
[mood? happy/annoyed/bored/sleepy]
the old people left! the old people left! *runs around doing "the old people left" dance* it was really boring with them here. i constantly had to show them around... UGH...
im ALSO happy cuz i talked to izzy(friend's bf that i like) yesterday. and i was telling him about stuff... and we were both stressed... so he sent me this game... its so cool... u can like.. smash up ur desktop and put termites.. and they eat stuff and then you can squash the termites.... its just really cool. ....aparently he used to b suicical. hehe... that only makes him hotter. now he has that whole "broody-mysterious" thing goin on.
im annoyed and sleepy cuz i was up til like... 130 last night arguing with sammy. *sigh* thats all we ever do anymore. oh well. it will pass with time.
i still havent finished walkabout.... hell, i hardly started walkabout. that book will mark my doom. its due on thursday.... shit im so screwed.
i guess i should go start that... mayb i'll take a nap first....
anywayz, gotta go. luv ya tho. :D
p.s.- shout owtz to franshiz. the only person who might actually read this.
Thursday, March 04, 2004
thingy
[song? "Hit That" -The Offspring]
[mood? bored]
this is this weird thing that francis sent me. i was bored, so i filled it out.
[my name is]: Jessa
[in the morning i am]: a bitch.
[love is]: something i wish was existed, for everyone's sake.
[i dream about]: fear/pain. i dont have dreams, i have nightmares.
-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: his height... then his eyes.
[last person u slow danced with]: my big brother :D
-W H O-
[easiest to talk to]: my cat, hes a great listener... but i guess jamie, emma, sammy, and francis.
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: yes... and it was bad.
-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]:Em.
[hugged]: Old lady at my house
[you instant messaged]: Francis.
[you laughed with]: Emily and Francis. (I dont gotta go rite now! those retards...lol..)
-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[could you live without the computer?]: yes, but i would have to get better at textin
[what's your favorite food?]: sushi- the vegetarian kind. jessa and fish DO NOT mix.
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: star fruit.
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emotional pain. physical pain will heal, and the scars help you remember that you lived through it... emotional pain will always be there, but without the cool scars to schow off to ur friends.
-N U M B E R-
[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: two
[of hearts i have broken?] : 1
[of boys i have kissed?] : two.
[of girls i have kissed?] : one. mom! :D
[of drugs taken illegally?] : one
[of tight friends?] : 8
[of cd's that i own?] : about 40
[of scars on my body?] : between 10 and 15
[of things in my past that i regret?] : being so mean to people i actually liked.
-O.T.H.E.R.T.H.I.N.G.S.-
[i know]: that i have many enemies.
[i want]: people to take me seriusly sumtimes.
[i have]: stuffed animals that i talk to.
[i wish]: that people werent so ignorant.
[i hate]: too much. people without manners are at the top of the list.
[i miss]: being able to show people who i really am.
[i fear]: being abandoned.
[i hear]: AFI, Blink 182, NIN, The Offspring... just to list a few
[i search]: i search? wtf....
[i love]: my loved ones?... that includes my wacked-out (but still kick-ass) homies.
[i ache]: for the less fortunate.
[i care]: everything/everyone worth caring about.
[i always]: accidently offend someone. then they get really pissed off at me.
[i dance]: when i think no ones looking.... XP
[i cry]: in my sleep.... luckily i dont get much of it.
[i do not always]: think of others.
[i write]: bad poetry. fictionpress.
[i confuse]: myself.
[i can usually be found]: annoying some idiot... most likely becuz im jealous of them.
[i need]: a stress reliever... in the form of him.
[have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing]: yes.
[if so, when and with who]: at some birthday party. it was part of ToD, and everyone played.
[favorite place to be kissed?]: for him to know and you to... not know.
[have you ever been caught "doing something"]: i got caught stealing *stupid me*
[wuss]: only for scary movies.
[druggie]: once.
[gang member]: s-unit "Strange" , MMC, the loser club
[daydreamer]: often
[alcoholic]: more often than i should.
[freak]: of DUH.
[brat]: only according to Mum.
[sarcastic]: i try.
[goody-goody]: i would hope not.
[angel]: yes, i consider myself to be an angel. (lmao)
[devil]: to many, yes.
[friend]: yes, but not a very good one.
[shy]: depending one with who.
[talkative]: too much so.
[adventurous]: usually
[intelligent]: i wish... but the damn analogies will not grant that wish.
-Concerning.The.Friends.(You.Claim.To.Have)-
[impacted you the most spiritually]: Sammy.
[wish you saw more often]: Lina
[wish you could meet]: James (not marsters, altho i do wish to meet him).
[most sarcastic]: franshiz!
[wish you knew better]: becca?
[knows you best]: emma, sammy, francis
[best outlook on life]: bryan
[most paranoid]: myself.
[sweetest]: some of them are sweet in some ways.... i guess the closest would b jamie
-Self-Analysis.You.Probably.Don't.Want.To.Do-
[your best feature (personality)]: my attitude. minus "my biggest flaw"
[your biggest flaw (personality)]: jealousy/annoying-ness.
[most annoying thing you do]: bitch about everything.
[biggest mistake you've made this far]: almost everything.
[describe your personality in one word]: spasmodic.
[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented]: eyes.
[person you regret sleeping with]: my stupid cat-- he scratched me wen i tried to push him off the bed.
[height]:6'........... not.... 5'5"
[a smell that makes you smile]: tommy cologne
[a city you'd like to visit]: melbourne australia
[a drink you order most often]: pink lemonade.
[a delicious dessert]: chocolate mousse
[a book you highly recommend]: Blood and Chocolate By Annette Kurtis Clause
[the music you prefer while alone]: broody music, like Korn
[your favorite band]: blink 182
[a film you could watch over and over]: School of ROck (KC!!!)
[a TV show you watch regularly]: angel
[you live in a(n)]: an over-sized cat carrier
[your transportation]: magic carpet.
[your cologne or perfume]: dont waer, but have Vanilla Glace
[under your bed or in your closet you hide]: clothes that i dont want my mom to force me to wear.
[something important on your night table]: book, cant sleep unless i read.
[mood? bored]
this is this weird thing that francis sent me. i was bored, so i filled it out.
[my name is]: Jessa
[in the morning i am]: a bitch.
[love is]: something i wish was existed, for everyone's sake.
[i dream about]: fear/pain. i dont have dreams, i have nightmares.
-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: his height... then his eyes.
[last person u slow danced with]: my big brother :D
-W H O-
[easiest to talk to]: my cat, hes a great listener... but i guess jamie, emma, sammy, and francis.
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: yes... and it was bad.
-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]:Em.
[hugged]: Old lady at my house
[you instant messaged]: Francis.
[you laughed with]: Emily and Francis. (I dont gotta go rite now! those retards...lol..)
-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[could you live without the computer?]: yes, but i would have to get better at textin
[what's your favorite food?]: sushi- the vegetarian kind. jessa and fish DO NOT mix.
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: star fruit.
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emotional pain. physical pain will heal, and the scars help you remember that you lived through it... emotional pain will always be there, but without the cool scars to schow off to ur friends.
-N U M B E R-
[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: two
[of hearts i have broken?] : 1
[of boys i have kissed?] : two.
[of girls i have kissed?] : one. mom! :D
[of drugs taken illegally?] : one
[of tight friends?] : 8
[of cd's that i own?] : about 40
[of scars on my body?] : between 10 and 15
[of things in my past that i regret?] : being so mean to people i actually liked.
-O.T.H.E.R.T.H.I.N.G.S.-
[i know]: that i have many enemies.
[i want]: people to take me seriusly sumtimes.
[i have]: stuffed animals that i talk to.
[i wish]: that people werent so ignorant.
[i hate]: too much. people without manners are at the top of the list.
[i miss]: being able to show people who i really am.
[i fear]: being abandoned.
[i hear]: AFI, Blink 182, NIN, The Offspring... just to list a few
[i search]: i search? wtf....
[i love]: my loved ones?... that includes my wacked-out (but still kick-ass) homies.
[i ache]: for the less fortunate.
[i care]: everything/everyone worth caring about.
[i always]: accidently offend someone. then they get really pissed off at me.
[i dance]: when i think no ones looking.... XP
[i cry]: in my sleep.... luckily i dont get much of it.
[i do not always]: think of others.
[i write]: bad poetry. fictionpress.
[i confuse]: myself.
[i can usually be found]: annoying some idiot... most likely becuz im jealous of them.
[i need]: a stress reliever... in the form of him.
[have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing]: yes.
[if so, when and with who]: at some birthday party. it was part of ToD, and everyone played.
[favorite place to be kissed?]: for him to know and you to... not know.
[have you ever been caught "doing something"]: i got caught stealing *stupid me*
[wuss]: only for scary movies.
[druggie]: once.
[gang member]: s-unit "Strange" , MMC, the loser club
[daydreamer]: often
[alcoholic]: more often than i should.
[freak]: of DUH.
[brat]: only according to Mum.
[sarcastic]: i try.
[goody-goody]: i would hope not.
[angel]: yes, i consider myself to be an angel. (lmao)
[devil]: to many, yes.
[friend]: yes, but not a very good one.
[shy]: depending one with who.
[talkative]: too much so.
[adventurous]: usually
[intelligent]: i wish... but the damn analogies will not grant that wish.
-Concerning.The.Friends.(You.Claim.To.Have)-
[impacted you the most spiritually]: Sammy.
[wish you saw more often]: Lina
[wish you could meet]: James (not marsters, altho i do wish to meet him).
[most sarcastic]: franshiz!
[wish you knew better]: becca?
[knows you best]: emma, sammy, francis
[best outlook on life]: bryan
[most paranoid]: myself.
[sweetest]: some of them are sweet in some ways.... i guess the closest would b jamie
-Self-Analysis.You.Probably.Don't.Want.To.Do-
[your best feature (personality)]: my attitude. minus "my biggest flaw"
[your biggest flaw (personality)]: jealousy/annoying-ness.
[most annoying thing you do]: bitch about everything.
[biggest mistake you've made this far]: almost everything.
[describe your personality in one word]: spasmodic.
[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented]: eyes.
[person you regret sleeping with]: my stupid cat-- he scratched me wen i tried to push him off the bed.
[height]:6'........... not.... 5'5"
[a smell that makes you smile]: tommy cologne
[a city you'd like to visit]: melbourne australia
[a drink you order most often]: pink lemonade.
[a delicious dessert]: chocolate mousse
[a book you highly recommend]: Blood and Chocolate By Annette Kurtis Clause
[the music you prefer while alone]: broody music, like Korn
[your favorite band]: blink 182
[a film you could watch over and over]: School of ROck (KC!!!)
[a TV show you watch regularly]: angel
[you live in a(n)]: an over-sized cat carrier
[your transportation]: magic carpet.
[your cologne or perfume]: dont waer, but have Vanilla Glace
[under your bed or in your closet you hide]: clothes that i dont want my mom to force me to wear.
[something important on your night table]: book, cant sleep unless i read.