[song? getting away with murder- papa roach]
[mood? SICK]
today... i was really really really sick. it sucks. sucks BADLY.
mannnnn i want cereal SOOOO badly. but i cant get my ass over to the cabinet to get it. BLEH.
today, i went to gym remedial. and it SUCKED. mr denaples made us do push ups, sit ups, and laps for like... half an hour. it really sucked. espesially because im sick, and my nose felt like it was going to fall off. :(
ugh. today was just bad. i have 2 quizzes tomoro. bleh. we're doing annoying things in math and science. art is kinda cool. we're making a huge book out of paper mache. but yea. not much happened today. not much AT ALL.
ugh... im not even going to repeat what i am to izzy. i know he loves me, but sometimes i get sad. oh well. i'll just let it go.
well, nighty night pplz. gotta go watch the debate for homework. *GO KERRY*
******I LOVE YOU IZZY*******
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
[song? im not okay- my chemical romance]
[mood? i have chapped lips.. does that count?]
bleh! im still sick so things suck. the only good part about today was that we spent nearly the entire gym period rehearsing for lockdown drills. hehehe. we only had to do exercises. NO SWEAT! literally... we didnt sweat. it was great. my tongue is swollen and it hurts damn braces. and mum just opened the door and a draft came in and my toes are FREEEEEEZING. so that sucks too.
oh, and we got our class rings today. theyre ok. mine was supposed to have a ruby in it, for the school colors, but it looks kinda... how u say.. PINK. its really annoying. and then the ring company assumed that everyone in our school had FAT fingers, so everyone's ring was like 3 sizes too big. ugh. i liked francis's tho. he had a pretty blue stone. ugh... at least his looked normal. i didnt get to see jamies tho, and becca didnt get one. so yea.
today sucked. badly. everything was boring. and my art profet is SUCKING. we have to make huge everyday objects, and my partner, this girl jathy, and i are making a big open book. but so far it looks like .... a piece of crap. we're supposed to make it out of plaster, and its gunna be totally crazy. and messy. for the next few weeks, im gunna be totally covered in that plaster powder, so im gunna look like a coke addict. what fun! :D... not.
my nose itches so bad... but its like.. that itchyness on the inside that u get when ur about to sneeze. but it sucks cuz i dont actually sneeze... i just get the nose itch... that sucks. :( at least my throat doesnt hurt tho.
sammy was mean. in second period today, he was like "JESSA I HATE UR VOICE" so i shut up. he tried to cover it up by saying that it was just when i made a particular voice, but ugh. so i didnt talk around him. unless i had to give an answer in class. he apologized a bunch of times, but i was still sad. :( i hate my voice too tho. so i dont blame him, but he could have at least said it nicer. goodness. i was listening to my voice on the recorder yesterday or today or something, and GOD. it only makes me hate my braces more.
tonight i dont have homework. so mom wants to go out and celebrate by going to red lobster. i like their biscuits. they have awesum biscuits. its so great... theyre like lemony and cheesy and good. thats the only reason we go there... lol. for the biscuits. sad, i know.
my mom says that the next dog we get is going to be an australian blue cattle dog. good. theyre medium sized dogs, and im sick of little dogs. i've always wanted at least a medium to large dog. i mean... size matters, right? ;D lol.. jk.
i like tape. alot. its really great.
well, thats all for now! TA TA PPLZ :D *huggles*
**************I LOVE U IZZY*************
[mood? i have chapped lips.. does that count?]
bleh! im still sick so things suck. the only good part about today was that we spent nearly the entire gym period rehearsing for lockdown drills. hehehe. we only had to do exercises. NO SWEAT! literally... we didnt sweat. it was great. my tongue is swollen and it hurts damn braces. and mum just opened the door and a draft came in and my toes are FREEEEEEZING. so that sucks too.
oh, and we got our class rings today. theyre ok. mine was supposed to have a ruby in it, for the school colors, but it looks kinda... how u say.. PINK. its really annoying. and then the ring company assumed that everyone in our school had FAT fingers, so everyone's ring was like 3 sizes too big. ugh. i liked francis's tho. he had a pretty blue stone. ugh... at least his looked normal. i didnt get to see jamies tho, and becca didnt get one. so yea.
today sucked. badly. everything was boring. and my art profet is SUCKING. we have to make huge everyday objects, and my partner, this girl jathy, and i are making a big open book. but so far it looks like .... a piece of crap. we're supposed to make it out of plaster, and its gunna be totally crazy. and messy. for the next few weeks, im gunna be totally covered in that plaster powder, so im gunna look like a coke addict. what fun! :D... not.
my nose itches so bad... but its like.. that itchyness on the inside that u get when ur about to sneeze. but it sucks cuz i dont actually sneeze... i just get the nose itch... that sucks. :( at least my throat doesnt hurt tho.
sammy was mean. in second period today, he was like "JESSA I HATE UR VOICE" so i shut up. he tried to cover it up by saying that it was just when i made a particular voice, but ugh. so i didnt talk around him. unless i had to give an answer in class. he apologized a bunch of times, but i was still sad. :( i hate my voice too tho. so i dont blame him, but he could have at least said it nicer. goodness. i was listening to my voice on the recorder yesterday or today or something, and GOD. it only makes me hate my braces more.
tonight i dont have homework. so mom wants to go out and celebrate by going to red lobster. i like their biscuits. they have awesum biscuits. its so great... theyre like lemony and cheesy and good. thats the only reason we go there... lol. for the biscuits. sad, i know.
my mom says that the next dog we get is going to be an australian blue cattle dog. good. theyre medium sized dogs, and im sick of little dogs. i've always wanted at least a medium to large dog. i mean... size matters, right? ;D lol.. jk.
i like tape. alot. its really great.
well, thats all for now! TA TA PPLZ :D *huggles*
**************I LOVE U IZZY*************
Monday, September 27, 2004
[song? lovely day-lit]
[mood? sick >:( ]
so yea. i think im sick. but it might just b a bad sore throat from like... sleeping with my mouth open. (that happens to me sometimes). i hope im not actually sick. gym SUCKS when ur sick and i have to stay after this for gym cuz i missed last week. ugh... that SUCKS :( the THOUGHT of it makes me wanna puke. so anyway... yea.
im trying to make this a long post cuz... izzy wants a long post. so yea. but im kinda limited since i've gotta go to bed at 1030. ugh... normally, i wouldnt want that, but cuz im SICK im extra sleepy. and izzy thinks that im suck cuz im "pregant" which implies two really bad things... but he says he was joking. so w/e. i'll pretend i never heard that.
ugh.. i just realize how much i hate homework. i hate it with a fiery passion. i hate it. i curse the creator of homework. and like.. im MAD. if the homework were HARD, then i would think its worthwhile. but its just annoying now. the math woman is giving us homework in the SAME EXACT THING SHE TAUGHT US LAST YEAR. ugh.. i REMEMBER her speech on it. its so gay. i can understand ms sheridans homework. hers is good. but OUTLINING from the science woman??!?!?!? outlining doesnt help u learn ANYTHING. ugh.. im so bloody sick of it. if i werent so arrogant, i would drop out of acc classes. but i cant let the acc ppl think theyre better than mE!! psh.
ugh. i hate it when my mom smokes. shes promised me every year since i was 5 that she would quit. but DOES SHE!? no. when she turned 50, she said, thats it FOR GOOD. but did she go with that?!?!? NO. she was like "oh im too stressed with ur brother in iraq" oh? so ur gunna slowly kill urself so that when he gets back IM motherless and HE has to take care of me?!?!? HUH!?!? ugh. im just reminded of that now cuz shes smoking and i have a sore throat so it stings to breathe. hmph... i got her to put out her cigarette. she SAYS she loves me, but if she really did, she wouldnt be slowly killing me AND herself. i remember one time, in the Atlanta airport, the have little glass smoking rooms. and she wanted to stop for a cigarette between flights, so she made me wait outside the glass room with the luggage while she went inside and chatted with the other smokers. and i was like.. 9 so i made the saddest little puppy dog face and stared at her. i made sure to hold all the luggage as i was making my sad little face. lmfao. everyone in the room gave her nasty stares until she was forced to leave. lmfao. the MOMENT she got out she smacked me lightly and was like "THANKS ALOT JESSA" and i was just cracking up. but HA thats what she got. hmph! making me wait like that. but yea... she says again shes gunna quit smoking, and when i told her i had lost all faith in her, she was just like "what? you dont believe my promises anymore? its only the 9th time i've made this promise..." she actually said that. sad eh?
but yea. its 1030. i have to sleep. izzy still isnt out of the shower. i'll wrap this up and then wait for him to get out so i can say goodnight. well, blog ya LATer pplZ
[mood? sick >:( ]
so yea. i think im sick. but it might just b a bad sore throat from like... sleeping with my mouth open. (that happens to me sometimes). i hope im not actually sick. gym SUCKS when ur sick and i have to stay after this for gym cuz i missed last week. ugh... that SUCKS :( the THOUGHT of it makes me wanna puke. so anyway... yea.
im trying to make this a long post cuz... izzy wants a long post. so yea. but im kinda limited since i've gotta go to bed at 1030. ugh... normally, i wouldnt want that, but cuz im SICK im extra sleepy. and izzy thinks that im suck cuz im "pregant" which implies two really bad things... but he says he was joking. so w/e. i'll pretend i never heard that.
ugh.. i just realize how much i hate homework. i hate it with a fiery passion. i hate it. i curse the creator of homework. and like.. im MAD. if the homework were HARD, then i would think its worthwhile. but its just annoying now. the math woman is giving us homework in the SAME EXACT THING SHE TAUGHT US LAST YEAR. ugh.. i REMEMBER her speech on it. its so gay. i can understand ms sheridans homework. hers is good. but OUTLINING from the science woman??!?!?!? outlining doesnt help u learn ANYTHING. ugh.. im so bloody sick of it. if i werent so arrogant, i would drop out of acc classes. but i cant let the acc ppl think theyre better than mE!! psh.
ugh. i hate it when my mom smokes. shes promised me every year since i was 5 that she would quit. but DOES SHE!? no. when she turned 50, she said, thats it FOR GOOD. but did she go with that?!?!? NO. she was like "oh im too stressed with ur brother in iraq" oh? so ur gunna slowly kill urself so that when he gets back IM motherless and HE has to take care of me?!?!? HUH!?!? ugh. im just reminded of that now cuz shes smoking and i have a sore throat so it stings to breathe. hmph... i got her to put out her cigarette. she SAYS she loves me, but if she really did, she wouldnt be slowly killing me AND herself. i remember one time, in the Atlanta airport, the have little glass smoking rooms. and she wanted to stop for a cigarette between flights, so she made me wait outside the glass room with the luggage while she went inside and chatted with the other smokers. and i was like.. 9 so i made the saddest little puppy dog face and stared at her. i made sure to hold all the luggage as i was making my sad little face. lmfao. everyone in the room gave her nasty stares until she was forced to leave. lmfao. the MOMENT she got out she smacked me lightly and was like "THANKS ALOT JESSA" and i was just cracking up. but HA thats what she got. hmph! making me wait like that. but yea... she says again shes gunna quit smoking, and when i told her i had lost all faith in her, she was just like "what? you dont believe my promises anymore? its only the 9th time i've made this promise..." she actually said that. sad eh?
but yea. its 1030. i have to sleep. izzy still isnt out of the shower. i'll wrap this up and then wait for him to get out so i can say goodnight. well, blog ya LATer pplZ
*******I LOVE U IZZY********
Friday, September 24, 2004
[song? the world is not enough- garbage]
[mood? strange]
im feelin strange. i dont have my bracelets on... so it feels like my wrists and hands arent even there... lol. its odd how i've gotten so used to them. i wonder how i get through gym.. bleH! gym was pretty good today. we played soccer. my team kicked the other team's ASS. hehe :D
ugh. i hate andrew messinio so much. hes such a jackass. im coming out of the locker room after gym, right, and hes walking by, and he says that stupid "burn, baby, burn" thing that he says everytime he sees me. he thinks hes funny cuz its like "byrne, baby, byrne".... but its not funny. and he had that stupid smirk, like, oh im so funny, come fight with me jessa. i've hated him since last year when i had gym with him. he would like.. push up against me or poke me, and then be like, jessa! stop touching me! and then mr hemenway saw him one time, and he made andrew sit on the other side of the bench. that stupid bastard. i hope he gets shot and then run over repeatedly by a steamroller. and then there was the time he called me a goth sl*t. but i wont even get INTO that. ugh
well... other than that, today was pretty normal. school was good. and i learned a lesson. the purpose of drinking is not a race. it is to consume the reccomended amount of daily liquid. laughing while drinking is WORSE than drinking and driving. the mixture of laughter and a full mouth of Brisk results in a wet table- as jamie and i learned the hard way today.
i cant wait to see izzy this weekend!!! :D
but yea. man... i have this song stuck in my head. but i dont know who its by or what its called. all i know is ONE line of the song. "there used to be angels. they used to watch over me. love isnt blind, but it aint what it used to be" it was so cool... i heard it on the radio like... AGES ago. im gunna try and find out what its called later. but w/e. :D
beavis and butthead isnt as funny as it used to be. theyre like.. really annoying now. my new show is GROUNED FOR LIFE. i used to watch that ALL the time, but i havent watched anything but adult swim in ages. i only ever watch tv while im doing homework late at night, hence the adult swim. i have to find out when grounded for life is on tonight. im gunna WATCH it. :D
man, i've been ultra cold ALL DAY. even during gym, when everyone was hot and sweaty, i was cold. i have reynaus (i cant spell it, only say it) syndrome and that SUCKS.
subway! EAT FRESH!
yea... ok im gunna go look up grounded for life and the song. and im gunna talk to izzy. and im gunna try and heat my toes. :D
[mood? strange]
im feelin strange. i dont have my bracelets on... so it feels like my wrists and hands arent even there... lol. its odd how i've gotten so used to them. i wonder how i get through gym.. bleH! gym was pretty good today. we played soccer. my team kicked the other team's ASS. hehe :D
ugh. i hate andrew messinio so much. hes such a jackass. im coming out of the locker room after gym, right, and hes walking by, and he says that stupid "burn, baby, burn" thing that he says everytime he sees me. he thinks hes funny cuz its like "byrne, baby, byrne".... but its not funny. and he had that stupid smirk, like, oh im so funny, come fight with me jessa. i've hated him since last year when i had gym with him. he would like.. push up against me or poke me, and then be like, jessa! stop touching me! and then mr hemenway saw him one time, and he made andrew sit on the other side of the bench. that stupid bastard. i hope he gets shot and then run over repeatedly by a steamroller. and then there was the time he called me a goth sl*t. but i wont even get INTO that. ugh
well... other than that, today was pretty normal. school was good. and i learned a lesson. the purpose of drinking is not a race. it is to consume the reccomended amount of daily liquid. laughing while drinking is WORSE than drinking and driving. the mixture of laughter and a full mouth of Brisk results in a wet table- as jamie and i learned the hard way today.
i cant wait to see izzy this weekend!!! :D
but yea. man... i have this song stuck in my head. but i dont know who its by or what its called. all i know is ONE line of the song. "there used to be angels. they used to watch over me. love isnt blind, but it aint what it used to be" it was so cool... i heard it on the radio like... AGES ago. im gunna try and find out what its called later. but w/e. :D
beavis and butthead isnt as funny as it used to be. theyre like.. really annoying now. my new show is GROUNED FOR LIFE. i used to watch that ALL the time, but i havent watched anything but adult swim in ages. i only ever watch tv while im doing homework late at night, hence the adult swim. i have to find out when grounded for life is on tonight. im gunna WATCH it. :D
man, i've been ultra cold ALL DAY. even during gym, when everyone was hot and sweaty, i was cold. i have reynaus (i cant spell it, only say it) syndrome and that SUCKS.
subway! EAT FRESH!
yea... ok im gunna go look up grounded for life and the song. and im gunna talk to izzy. and im gunna try and heat my toes. :D
I LOVE U IZZY
Thursday, September 23, 2004
[song? 1985-bowling for soup]
[mood? chipper :D]
yea well school sucks. i almost failed the math test but hopefully im gunna improve my grade. :D so im happy about that. anyway its only test and this stupid project that im doing tonight should improve my grade. one of the teachers said i looked sick. ugh... i probably look pale and ew and ugh. *checks mirror* yea... wow i do look sick. im not that sick... i just get headaches alot now. and that fucking jump rope thing in gym with the gay music blaring didnt help AT ALL. but yea... its all good. its only school. :D best not to sweat the small stuff.
i miss izzy. im so excited tho!!! i get to see him this weekend!!! :D its gunna b so great! :D i miss that dear boy sooooo much. :( when i see him, im gunna hug him, and kiss him, and squeeze him, and just be OOOOOOHHHHHHH SOOOOOOO HAPPYYY! :D i cant wait!!! hehehehehehe :D
bhavini is mean. she got a gym excuse becuz of "muscle aches" WELL DUH. its been summer. we havent been exercising as much, so are muscles are out of shape. and OBVIOUSLY if theyre sore, that means theyre getting stronger. she says that if they still hurt when she goes back to gym, shes gunna go back to her doctor and get another excuse. but UGH. thats so gay. ur never gunna get any more fit if u keep getting excuse from gym! BUNS OF STEEL PPL! BUUUNNNSS OF STTEEEEEEEEEEL! thats what its all about. and u KNOW IT!!!! and francis and sophie SUCK cuz they got to miss gym today. francis had orchestra and sophie had a retarded ankle. :(
those BUTTS!!!!
i have to do the big hard stupid math project. everyone says its easy... but i havent looked at it. IT BETTER BE EASY TIMOTHY. OR I WILL MURDER UR FIRST BORN CHILD. haha.. thats like.. the best threat ever. cuz no one knows if ur serious or not. they have to wait until they have children. and they might NEVER have children becuz theyre scared ur gunna murder it. lol... in that case, you will have done a good deed by preventing the stupid ppl for breeding, hence sparing earth from more idiots. :D :D :D lol... YES.
im such a nerd. like... ugh. sometimes, its really sad. when my friends and i are all standing around before school, we talk about things like homework, the test today, and other nerdy crap. NORMAL ppl are there talking about what they're gunna wear on friday night. and the sad thing is, im the only one of us who seems to realize that we're so nerdy. i try and start normal convos, but they always end up in ppl just going "ur crazy jessa". so it never works out... lol. oh well, i guess we're condemned to our nerdyness.
man.. that song by ciara "goodies". thats song is so strange. its about this girl... and she keeps her goodies in a jar so that these guys wont get them. its a really odd thing to write a song about.. thats like me writing about how many socks i can fit in my dryer. ITS POINTLESS. can u imagine a music video for that? jessa's number one hit- "SOX IN MA DRYA" and then it goes to a shot of ppl dancing in front of a huge dryer filled with giant socks. the DAY that video (or any video like it) comes out, i will lose respect for all music. i will then assassinate whoever sings it. and when im sentenced to death by the electric chair, i will be happy. becuz i alone single handedly saved all of music. that one artist that sings the socks song, will have ruined music for ppl everywhere. ppl will sing praise of their death. and then the NEXT song that comes out will be like "THANK GOD THAT THE GUY WHO WROTE THE SOCKS SONG IS DEAD" by Everyone in the Entire World.
wow... i cant believe i went on that long about that. thats really sad. see, thats something i would have said at school to try and start a normal convo. but by the second sentence, ppl would have been like "ur crazy jessa" and then we'd end up talking about books and homework. IT ALL COMES BACK TO THE NERDYNESS. lol... but yea. its ok. i've accepted it.
bleh! im so cold. but im not gunna turn off the air conditioner. cuz them ima get hot, but i wont remember to turn the airconditioner back ON. and then im gunna squirm on the floor cuz its so hot. and me squirming on the floor is not pretty, and it doesnt solve anything. so i will sit here and be cold for the sake of future squirming.
i have to download some songs. that would b good. :D i need to download the new papa roach song.. some greenday... an old garbage song... and that marcy playground song if i can find a good version. :D but yea. thats gunna take a while. i'll download them while i do my homework and talk to my beloved izzy online :D
this has been a long post... good. i needed it. :D i needed to ramble some. i havent rambled in a while. oh how i miss it. im quite fond of it really... but no one has the time to listen to my ramblings. :( its ok tho. thats what i have a blog for!!!!
well.. ima go do my homework then. goodnight pplZ :D
[mood? chipper :D]
yea well school sucks. i almost failed the math test but hopefully im gunna improve my grade. :D so im happy about that. anyway its only test and this stupid project that im doing tonight should improve my grade. one of the teachers said i looked sick. ugh... i probably look pale and ew and ugh. *checks mirror* yea... wow i do look sick. im not that sick... i just get headaches alot now. and that fucking jump rope thing in gym with the gay music blaring didnt help AT ALL. but yea... its all good. its only school. :D best not to sweat the small stuff.
i miss izzy. im so excited tho!!! i get to see him this weekend!!! :D its gunna b so great! :D i miss that dear boy sooooo much. :( when i see him, im gunna hug him, and kiss him, and squeeze him, and just be OOOOOOHHHHHHH SOOOOOOO HAPPYYY! :D i cant wait!!! hehehehehehe :D
bhavini is mean. she got a gym excuse becuz of "muscle aches" WELL DUH. its been summer. we havent been exercising as much, so are muscles are out of shape. and OBVIOUSLY if theyre sore, that means theyre getting stronger. she says that if they still hurt when she goes back to gym, shes gunna go back to her doctor and get another excuse. but UGH. thats so gay. ur never gunna get any more fit if u keep getting excuse from gym! BUNS OF STEEL PPL! BUUUNNNSS OF STTEEEEEEEEEEL! thats what its all about. and u KNOW IT!!!! and francis and sophie SUCK cuz they got to miss gym today. francis had orchestra and sophie had a retarded ankle. :(
those BUTTS!!!!
i have to do the big hard stupid math project. everyone says its easy... but i havent looked at it. IT BETTER BE EASY TIMOTHY. OR I WILL MURDER UR FIRST BORN CHILD. haha.. thats like.. the best threat ever. cuz no one knows if ur serious or not. they have to wait until they have children. and they might NEVER have children becuz theyre scared ur gunna murder it. lol... in that case, you will have done a good deed by preventing the stupid ppl for breeding, hence sparing earth from more idiots. :D :D :D lol... YES.
im such a nerd. like... ugh. sometimes, its really sad. when my friends and i are all standing around before school, we talk about things like homework, the test today, and other nerdy crap. NORMAL ppl are there talking about what they're gunna wear on friday night. and the sad thing is, im the only one of us who seems to realize that we're so nerdy. i try and start normal convos, but they always end up in ppl just going "ur crazy jessa". so it never works out... lol. oh well, i guess we're condemned to our nerdyness.
man.. that song by ciara "goodies". thats song is so strange. its about this girl... and she keeps her goodies in a jar so that these guys wont get them. its a really odd thing to write a song about.. thats like me writing about how many socks i can fit in my dryer. ITS POINTLESS. can u imagine a music video for that? jessa's number one hit- "SOX IN MA DRYA" and then it goes to a shot of ppl dancing in front of a huge dryer filled with giant socks. the DAY that video (or any video like it) comes out, i will lose respect for all music. i will then assassinate whoever sings it. and when im sentenced to death by the electric chair, i will be happy. becuz i alone single handedly saved all of music. that one artist that sings the socks song, will have ruined music for ppl everywhere. ppl will sing praise of their death. and then the NEXT song that comes out will be like "THANK GOD THAT THE GUY WHO WROTE THE SOCKS SONG IS DEAD" by Everyone in the Entire World.
wow... i cant believe i went on that long about that. thats really sad. see, thats something i would have said at school to try and start a normal convo. but by the second sentence, ppl would have been like "ur crazy jessa" and then we'd end up talking about books and homework. IT ALL COMES BACK TO THE NERDYNESS. lol... but yea. its ok. i've accepted it.
bleh! im so cold. but im not gunna turn off the air conditioner. cuz them ima get hot, but i wont remember to turn the airconditioner back ON. and then im gunna squirm on the floor cuz its so hot. and me squirming on the floor is not pretty, and it doesnt solve anything. so i will sit here and be cold for the sake of future squirming.
i have to download some songs. that would b good. :D i need to download the new papa roach song.. some greenday... an old garbage song... and that marcy playground song if i can find a good version. :D but yea. thats gunna take a while. i'll download them while i do my homework and talk to my beloved izzy online :D
this has been a long post... good. i needed it. :D i needed to ramble some. i havent rambled in a while. oh how i miss it. im quite fond of it really... but no one has the time to listen to my ramblings. :( its ok tho. thats what i have a blog for!!!!
well.. ima go do my homework then. goodnight pplZ :D
***~!I LOVE U IZZY!~***
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
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[song? predictable- GC (its been stuck in my head all day)]
[mood? sleepy]
ok. i just want to clear this up. izzy says i dont talk to him. lately its been becuz i have to watch the baby, catch up with my aunt, do all my FRICKEN HOMEWORK, study, and deal with some other issues. i call him, but either he "stepped out" as leamsy says, or is sleeping. when i talk to him online, he doesnt count that as talking. and when i text him from my phone, my phone lags, so we cant have any NORMAL convos from there. so im trying. but like, its kinda hard when im trying to hold jasmine, and izzy's texting me, to reply to the texts quickly. im sorry izzy, once my aunt leaves, i will call and everything more. i just needed to clear that up. i love izzy SOOoOOOO much!!! :D
well yea. in case i havent told u already, my baby cousin is adorable. im not gunna go on about this, cuz i kno i already told most of u. but she is :D
mannn. i have to study for the SS test that i missed. becca gave me a kinda study guide. and she says its easy. so yea. :D but i have a huge stupid chart that i have to do for social studies. and then i have the gay outline for the science bitch. and then i have to study vocab... and then i have to finish the questions for LA. so yea.. i should probly get started on that. oh, AND i have to download some NEWSY music for the class newscast, burn it, and bring it in tomoro. yea. i SHOULD get started on that soon. my mom is mad cuz i didnt go to sleep til 430 last night. so i only like like... 3 hours of sleep. wait... 2 and a half. same shit. but yea. ok. sorry, i know this is boring to my readers, but its more of a reminder to myself.
today was pretty good. it was funny tho. i sent a note to francis in math, like, making fun of him. and he got all like "fake mad" and then he crumpled up the paper. but all my homework was on the other side. lol... ms tsumura started talking right after that, and me and becca started cracking up really loudly right in the middle of her little speech. but of COURSE, becuz becca and i are always messin around in her class, she ignored us. :D hehe. she cant yell at us. i mean... we do well enough in her class. after that, i was like "psht! francis! that was my HOMEWORK!" he was like "OMG! IM SO SORRY!" and we all just cracked up. that was fun. math class rocks.
and then like.. 10 min after that, tim came and sat next to me cuz he wanted answers to the homework, and we got off subject and him, me, francis, and becca, started talking about where we're going to high school. tim was like AND I QUOTE "well, i cant go to chs (Clifton High School) because of all the druggies. and you know me, i get so tempted that i just get sucked in!" fracis said he was gunna move to like.. some weird state or something, and tim was like "thats where all the druggies live!!!" timmy is such a funny little person. its a pity he can be so annoying. he has my book, and he KNOWS its mine. and he KNOWS that i KNOW he has it. and he wont give it back!!! and he owes becca $5! bleH!
*sigh* i miss izzy. i havent seen him in ages. :( :( :( mom wouldnt let me see him this weekend cuz auntie carol was here. but i get to see him next weekend!!! :D WOOT WOOT! i cant wait! HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHHE.
ok.. thats all from me for now!!!
****I LOVE YOU IZZY****
[mood? sleepy]
ok. i just want to clear this up. izzy says i dont talk to him. lately its been becuz i have to watch the baby, catch up with my aunt, do all my FRICKEN HOMEWORK, study, and deal with some other issues. i call him, but either he "stepped out" as leamsy says, or is sleeping. when i talk to him online, he doesnt count that as talking. and when i text him from my phone, my phone lags, so we cant have any NORMAL convos from there. so im trying. but like, its kinda hard when im trying to hold jasmine, and izzy's texting me, to reply to the texts quickly. im sorry izzy, once my aunt leaves, i will call and everything more. i just needed to clear that up. i love izzy SOOoOOOO much!!! :D
well yea. in case i havent told u already, my baby cousin is adorable. im not gunna go on about this, cuz i kno i already told most of u. but she is :D
mannn. i have to study for the SS test that i missed. becca gave me a kinda study guide. and she says its easy. so yea. :D but i have a huge stupid chart that i have to do for social studies. and then i have the gay outline for the science bitch. and then i have to study vocab... and then i have to finish the questions for LA. so yea.. i should probly get started on that. oh, AND i have to download some NEWSY music for the class newscast, burn it, and bring it in tomoro. yea. i SHOULD get started on that soon. my mom is mad cuz i didnt go to sleep til 430 last night. so i only like like... 3 hours of sleep. wait... 2 and a half. same shit. but yea. ok. sorry, i know this is boring to my readers, but its more of a reminder to myself.
today was pretty good. it was funny tho. i sent a note to francis in math, like, making fun of him. and he got all like "fake mad" and then he crumpled up the paper. but all my homework was on the other side. lol... ms tsumura started talking right after that, and me and becca started cracking up really loudly right in the middle of her little speech. but of COURSE, becuz becca and i are always messin around in her class, she ignored us. :D hehe. she cant yell at us. i mean... we do well enough in her class. after that, i was like "psht! francis! that was my HOMEWORK!" he was like "OMG! IM SO SORRY!" and we all just cracked up. that was fun. math class rocks.
and then like.. 10 min after that, tim came and sat next to me cuz he wanted answers to the homework, and we got off subject and him, me, francis, and becca, started talking about where we're going to high school. tim was like AND I QUOTE "well, i cant go to chs (Clifton High School) because of all the druggies. and you know me, i get so tempted that i just get sucked in!" fracis said he was gunna move to like.. some weird state or something, and tim was like "thats where all the druggies live!!!" timmy is such a funny little person. its a pity he can be so annoying. he has my book, and he KNOWS its mine. and he KNOWS that i KNOW he has it. and he wont give it back!!! and he owes becca $5! bleH!
*sigh* i miss izzy. i havent seen him in ages. :( :( :( mom wouldnt let me see him this weekend cuz auntie carol was here. but i get to see him next weekend!!! :D WOOT WOOT! i cant wait! HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHHE.
ok.. thats all from me for now!!!
****I LOVE YOU IZZY****
Monday, September 20, 2004
[song? painted black-gob]
[mood? sleepy]
hey guys, just wanted to post a short one before i go to bed.
i just got back from NY with the aunt, baby cuz, and uncle. it was really cool, my uncles family was all really nice. we staying in a piece of shit motel tho... but we complained and got upgraded to the best room in the worst hotel.. lol. well yea.
baby jasmine is TOO cute. its crazy. u just wanna SQUEEZE her. apparently she likes my shirts. i wore my zim shirt, grouch shirt, and pilz-e shirt. she loved em. all 3 days i had to pick her up so she could sit and point at my shirt. she loved it. :D she likes ceiling fans too. they amaze her. every time she sees one, wheter its on or off, she points and laughs. its so cute. :D
well, yea. im doin a buttload of homework. it sucks... i dont feel well tho. ugh. i have a tummy ache from all the food we ate at my uncles grandma's house.
*goes to Tums commercial: TUMS TUMS TUMS TUMS TUMS!*
hhehehe. im so happy. i get to see my izzy next weekend. i cant wait. i have to bribe mum into either driving me, or giving me the money to take the train. (hopefully i wont run into any scary pedofiles) but YEA! i need my izzy fix... im like an ADDICT. its crazy :D
well, im SooOooOOOooOO sleepy! so im gunna go do my homework and go to bed. g'night yalL!
[mood? sleepy]
hey guys, just wanted to post a short one before i go to bed.
i just got back from NY with the aunt, baby cuz, and uncle. it was really cool, my uncles family was all really nice. we staying in a piece of shit motel tho... but we complained and got upgraded to the best room in the worst hotel.. lol. well yea.
baby jasmine is TOO cute. its crazy. u just wanna SQUEEZE her. apparently she likes my shirts. i wore my zim shirt, grouch shirt, and pilz-e shirt. she loved em. all 3 days i had to pick her up so she could sit and point at my shirt. she loved it. :D she likes ceiling fans too. they amaze her. every time she sees one, wheter its on or off, she points and laughs. its so cute. :D
well, yea. im doin a buttload of homework. it sucks... i dont feel well tho. ugh. i have a tummy ache from all the food we ate at my uncles grandma's house.
*goes to Tums commercial: TUMS TUMS TUMS TUMS TUMS!*
hhehehe. im so happy. i get to see my izzy next weekend. i cant wait. i have to bribe mum into either driving me, or giving me the money to take the train. (hopefully i wont run into any scary pedofiles) but YEA! i need my izzy fix... im like an ADDICT. its crazy :D
well, im SooOooOOOooOO sleepy! so im gunna go do my homework and go to bed. g'night yalL!
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I LOVE YOU IZZY
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Thursday, September 16, 2004
[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
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I LOVE YOU IZZY
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[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
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I LOVE YOU IZZY
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[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
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I LOVE YOU IZZY
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[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
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I LOVE YOU IZZY
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[song? tetris music]
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
[mood? calm... not really anything]
jasmine and carol come tomoro at noon. i dont get to get out of school (damn) but oh well. im really excited about them coming, but im sad too. i dont get to see izzy this weekend. i have to go up to ny instead. :(
birthday shout outs to paulo and julio. even tho i hate julios guts, and i hope he gets run over, im doing this becuz izzy says he seems like a good person when he smiles. and plo just rocks. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY U TWO!!!
well... i have a blinding headache right now. typing is hard. bleh. my ears are stinging cuz i put another pair of earings in. it looks retarded tho cuz my third holes are uneven. i havent started my homework.
izzy suggested i say something about myself becuz i dont know what else to write. im trying to be a good person. im trying to b a good girlfriend, friend, student, and daughter (in that order). its really hard. and its alot of pressure. but im coping. and im proud of that. :D
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I LOVE YOU IZZY
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Wednesday, September 15, 2004
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[song? the best is yet to come undone- lit]
[mood? happy on the outside. thats all that counts.]
today was so cool. in school there was a big ass scary bomb threat and we all could have been blown up. it was exciting in a terrifying way! :D hehehee!
well yea. my life is slowly being beaten with a mallet until it cracks. lol... great analogy eh? i know, thanks. :D oh well. i keep failing.. but all that matters is that i love izzy, my friends, and my family.
tomorrow we have off from rosh hashanah... lol. i told ms tsumura that she couldnt give us alot of homework today because i have to celebrate rosh hashanah. she was like, oh what do u do for the holdiday? and i was like.. "umm... we celebrate!" she asked what we celebrate, and i was like "we just party....!" she was like, "oh ok. SO for tonight all you ppl have to do a worksheet, the journal, and some other thing" yea... im not good at lying about being jewish. :D OH WELL. i'll just have to live with it....
mmmm.... werthers. francis and i got them when we went to the dollar store after school. they kick. :D and... SO DOES MY BRISK!
*cuts to brisk ice tea commercial- you see a animated bruce lee beating ppl up and then drinking a bottle of brisk ice tea. BRISK BABY!*
does anyone remember that commercial? it used to be like... my fav commercial of all time. now my fav is this shower commercial... its so cool. but thats a whole diff story that im not gunna get into today.
welll NIGHT PEOPLES! yall kick tuSH! :D
[mood? happy on the outside. thats all that counts.]
today was so cool. in school there was a big ass scary bomb threat and we all could have been blown up. it was exciting in a terrifying way! :D hehehee!
well yea. my life is slowly being beaten with a mallet until it cracks. lol... great analogy eh? i know, thanks. :D oh well. i keep failing.. but all that matters is that i love izzy, my friends, and my family.
tomorrow we have off from rosh hashanah... lol. i told ms tsumura that she couldnt give us alot of homework today because i have to celebrate rosh hashanah. she was like, oh what do u do for the holdiday? and i was like.. "umm... we celebrate!" she asked what we celebrate, and i was like "we just party....!" she was like, "oh ok. SO for tonight all you ppl have to do a worksheet, the journal, and some other thing" yea... im not good at lying about being jewish. :D OH WELL. i'll just have to live with it....
mmmm.... werthers. francis and i got them when we went to the dollar store after school. they kick. :D and... SO DOES MY BRISK!
*cuts to brisk ice tea commercial- you see a animated bruce lee beating ppl up and then drinking a bottle of brisk ice tea. BRISK BABY!*
does anyone remember that commercial? it used to be like... my fav commercial of all time. now my fav is this shower commercial... its so cool. but thats a whole diff story that im not gunna get into today.
welll NIGHT PEOPLES! yall kick tuSH! :D
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I LOVE YOU IZZY
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Tuesday, September 14, 2004
[song? still muse]
[mood? crying]
sometimes i want to believe in god so badly... just so i can pray. but i cant.
i cant believe i fucked up again. izzy's mad at me. he thinks i want to break up with him. hell no. i dont want that at all. but i fucked up. and now he thinks im rebelling against him and that i wanna break up. i've been pissing him off and making him mad alot lately. and im never going to use the word "chill" again. ever.
Blinky41 [6:23 PM]: you might want to break up with ME... but i dont want that
(izzy's sn) [6:24 PM]: sure w.e
^a piece of the actual convo^
im gunna go listen to sad music. and mope.
[mood? crying]
sometimes i want to believe in god so badly... just so i can pray. but i cant.
i cant believe i fucked up again. izzy's mad at me. he thinks i want to break up with him. hell no. i dont want that at all. but i fucked up. and now he thinks im rebelling against him and that i wanna break up. i've been pissing him off and making him mad alot lately. and im never going to use the word "chill" again. ever.
Blinky41 [6:23 PM]: you might want to break up with ME... but i dont want that
(izzy's sn) [6:24 PM]: sure w.e
^a piece of the actual convo^
im gunna go listen to sad music. and mope.
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I LOVE YOU IZZY
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Monday, September 13, 2004
[song? our time is running out- muse]
[mood? exhausted]
[mood? exhausted]
i think im drowning- asphyxiated
i wanna break the spell, that you've created
you're something beautiful, a contradiction
i wanna play the game, i want the friction
you will be the death of me"Our Time is Running Out" -muse
sorry... that song is so great. i've been listening to it for like... 2 days now.
anyway, sorry i havent blogged in ages. i have a good excuse. you see, my computer's modem... DIED. so i had to have the oh so fantastic IZZY, god of computers come fix it. :D so... now it works. im sorrY! MUCH THANKS TO MY BELOVED IZZY FOR REPLACING MY MODEM!! :D
so anyway... yea. school sucked today. we started gym. mr hill tried to kill us with these weird ALMOST pushup/situp/standup things. theyre really gay. but oh well... i must comply simply due to my undeniable inferiority. haha... school does weird things to my head. i start THINKING... and then... i start writing sentences like that. *points to that other sentence*
well... on friday the aunt, uncle, and baby cousin are coming. i've never seen jasmine yet and shes already one and a half... god. i dont remember the last time i saw family other than my brother. beside sally, the last time was in 5th grade. and sally came in like... 6th grade. so... yea. i cant wait to see them. also, its gunna be cool, cuz jasmine is the only other ragan thats white. shes supposed to be as white as me... funky eh?
well... no one knows what the fuck is going on with the house. my mom is talking about going back to work. amandas parents might rent the house. no one really knows. none of the ppl who look at it want it. so... w/e.
the need to shop is burning through my veins like rivers of fire!!! ok.. so im exaggerating. but still... i wanna go shopping. and spend lots and lots of mummy's money!! MASLDKJALDSJlsa. muahahhaha. im so spoiled... ugh.
well... since you all already know what a nerd i am, im going to tell you this. the other day... i was playing tetris... AND GUESS WHAT HAPPENED!?!?!? i got my all time super awesum HIGH SCORE. i did a victory dance and everything. i dont even DO victory dances, but this time i did. it was so great... :D :D :D i got 119,866 points!!!! and i got to level 16!!! how kick ass is that?!?!?!? when you score over 100,000 theres this special thing that it does at the end. ok, the dorkiness has passed for now.. BUT IT WILL BE BACK.
i had such a kick ass time with izzy yesterday :D even tho we didnt have alot of time together, and the time we DID have we were stuck in clifton, it was good to just see him. he makes me so happy... :D i miss him already... :P *tear* im not gunna get to see him next weekend tho cuz im going into yonkers with the family :(
well, 2 words for ya. homework SUCKS. ok ppl. im out. gotta go do the hw. my readers ROCK!
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I LOVE YOU IZZY
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Friday, September 03, 2004
[song? no song]
[mood? sad]
[mood? sad]
today i messed up. izzy was wating for me to call, but HE didnt call, so i thought he was mad at me. he usually calls me but he didnt. so i didnt call or text him, and so he got mad at me that i didnt contact him. :( im sowwie izzy. i will start calling.
other than that, today was ok. ms sheridan is really cool.. so is ms tsumura (again). i dont like basil, gary, craig, and kevin. i wish theyre werent in my class. they really annoy me. but its good to see my friends again.
i have a stomache ache and i feel light headed. oww... not much else happened today anyway... so im gunna stop here.
BYE EVERYONE!!! *hugs*
*~I LOVE YOU IZZY~* and im sorry for not calling :(
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
[song? livin it up- limp bizkit]
[mood? sad and crying. i know, im pathetic]
i was happy earlier, cuz i got to talk to izzy. but then he got sleepy and went to bed. and right before he slept, he said he loved me. and i said i loved him back. but he only said "sure w.e" wich means he didnt believe me. i really think he stopped believing that i love him with all my heart. god.. now im crying. the ONE person i love right now, doesnt believe me when i tell him that i love him. boy have i fucked up this time. hes the most important thing to me right now, and what happens? he thinks i dont love him.. thats just fucking great. and now my day has officially been fucked up. until now, i had a great day.
well, i'll tell yall about what happened before this. i read the my summer reading book all day. its really good... its called briar rose. by jane yolen. its based on sleeping beauty, but its been modernized. so... its just a really good book. :D
then i made dinner for my mom and her friend... i ate some. but mainly i ate two pomegranates for dinner. theyre sooo good. theyre like.. APPLES... but better. the main thing is, theyre FUN to eat. you have to pick out all the seeds to eat. unlike normal fruit, you only eat the seeds... theyre so good. my new fav fruit- pomegranate.
[mood? sad and crying. i know, im pathetic]
i was happy earlier, cuz i got to talk to izzy. but then he got sleepy and went to bed. and right before he slept, he said he loved me. and i said i loved him back. but he only said "sure w.e" wich means he didnt believe me. i really think he stopped believing that i love him with all my heart. god.. now im crying. the ONE person i love right now, doesnt believe me when i tell him that i love him. boy have i fucked up this time. hes the most important thing to me right now, and what happens? he thinks i dont love him.. thats just fucking great. and now my day has officially been fucked up. until now, i had a great day.
well, i'll tell yall about what happened before this. i read the my summer reading book all day. its really good... its called briar rose. by jane yolen. its based on sleeping beauty, but its been modernized. so... its just a really good book. :D
then i made dinner for my mom and her friend... i ate some. but mainly i ate two pomegranates for dinner. theyre sooo good. theyre like.. APPLES... but better. the main thing is, theyre FUN to eat. you have to pick out all the seeds to eat. unlike normal fruit, you only eat the seeds... theyre so good. my new fav fruit- pomegranate.
and as i was reading my book, i was stretching off the bed, and i stuck my head right next to the side table. and what did i spy? MY MISSING MP3 PLAYER!!! it was in a stack of my stuff that mum stashed under the table... lol. i found a bunch of cool stuff that i had forgotten about along with it. im soooo glad i found it. it was a gift from chris, and he would probly murder me if i lost it. i love my big brother soooo much. :D hes my HOMIE.
chris left to korea on sunday. he should have gotten there like... tuesday morning or monday night. im gunna miss him. hopefully i'll get to see him around christmas, but who knows. with the house and all this moving shit goin on, we might be house hunting in cali around then. so, i might not get to see him for a year. wich is bloody fucking great. i didnt even get to visit him and say bye before he left. god. its not like i was anywhere else this summer. im sure izzy would understand if i took like, a week in georgia to visit my bro before he left to the other side of the world for a year. im gunna miss my big bro. but at least in sol hes safe. and not back in iraq again. :D thats something to be greatful for.
and im mad cuz i didnt get to go shopping at all before school. we're poor cuz the house hasnt sold yet. so i cant go shopping until the house sells. and that UPSETS ME. i need some stuff... i need clothes and crap. DAMNIT. i NEED TO GO SHOPPING. i NEED to spend my moms money. I JUST NEED TO. i havent gone shopping in ssoooooo long. it upsets me.
i can and cant wait to go back to school. i dont want to cuz i still have to do all the essays and current events. PLUS when im at school, i cant see izzy. so that SUCKS. but i do miss my homies. shout outs to becca (ears pierced and hair cut), jamIE!!, franshiz, SammY, bRenna, and MichellE, brenda, lianne, ryan, bryan, emMa, and amAnda. and it'll be good to wake up early and be mad at the sun for shining at such an ungodly hour again. lol... shit.. i need to find a ride to school. kyle? emma? MOM?!!??! who knows. but yea. i kinda miss it... weird eh?
ok, there was a mem here that showed that johnny depp wanted to bang me 222 times. but the hmtl code didnt work on the blog, so i cant really show you. none of the mems are workin properly. im sorry. i wrote this next part before i found out the html code didnt work.
lmfao.. im glad i got johnny... but ew... hes a SEX MACHINE!!!
(lol.. dont worry izzy, he aint got NOTHIN on you!!! ;D) jk.. i dont know about anything or ANYONE being a sex machine... and frankly, im very glad of that. :D
sorry... i couldnt resist this mem... its just funny.... in a really sick perverted nasty way. :D BUT WHO'S MORE PERVERTED THAN ME?!?!? *readers scream "micheal jackson and r kelly"* no... i mean BESIDE them... see? i win if you dont count them. and theyre not necessarily more PERVERTED.. micheal and r kelly are just sick pedofiles who enjoy intercourse with CHILDREN! THOSE SICK BASTARDS!!! but anyway, thats beside the point... and speaking of the "point" i forgot what it was. but w/e.
ok, well this was a really long post. i promised izzy it would be. :D well, moms yellin at me to sleep, since it is now 340 am... so maybe i should. i have alot of work to do tomoro. i'll finish up the math and stuff, and do all the essays and crap tomoro. damn... i havent written all summer and i have to do all of it the day before school starts. NICE jessa. REAL nice.
well, good night ppl LOVE YAZ! *dances away*
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