[song? wrong line by jupiter one]
[mood? relaxxed]

just chugged a cocaine.
i'm relaxed now but i'm about to be hyper.
so.
this blog is back.

i did xanga.
and then that died.
i realized i was just creating this persona to please my readers.
i had started to keep a journal.
but i realize that this can be my journal.
i started out on blogger, && i'll end up on blogger.
it's love.

except i've truly changed as a person since i last decided to post here.
i grew up. my life has changed and so have my priorities.
fuck being a victim, and letting life just happen to you.
i'm going to be a good person. i'm going to take responsibility for the things i do.
a mistake isnt a mistake if you knew better before it happened.
&& i want to change the world.
[[just like every other fucking teenager]]

as of right now, i dont know exactly what i want.
i know that i'm happy. life might be mediocre, but i have amazing things to be thankful for and to look forward to, so i refuse to ever be unhappy in my life.
the world is a horrible place, but so much everyday good is overlooked & overshadowed by the terrible, unjust things that happen.

i live back in new jersey now, && i've got a great boyfriend and a great bestfriend here. but i will always miss california. when i moved there, i was pissed because i thought i moved into a low class, white trash town. and i did. but i had no right to judge the people there, because they're the most amazing people i've ever met. never have i felt to accepted without judgment or met people who were as sincere and fun-loving. i pity the people who will judge them without ever getting to know them like i almost did.

so that's a little of what i think and why i think it.
peace&&love.